I am so sorry for your loss. There are really no words that can really comfort much at all. I wish there were. I agree with you that cancer is not from God. He doesn't cause it and He doesn't cure it. Cancer has causes that we just cannot always explain, and unfortunately, there are certain types of cancer that grow so fast and so furious that they can't be stopped. I honestly think that if it can't be completely removed, then there never really is a cure. My mom died of a Grade IV brain tumor 9/20/06, and she lived 10 months to the day from when she awakened with symptoms. Like you, my dad is heartbroken and the love of his life suffered and is gone, and his future is shattered. He is staying busy and trying to get through each day, but it's hard. He says that he sometimes cries while he works. My mom was 65 when she died. She experienced what she knew to be her last Thanksgiving, Christmas, birthday, Valentine's Day, Easter, 4th of July, my birthday, Spring and Summer, and Mother's Day. She knew at each of these days that it would be her last one, and it was so hard to be strong for her, but her strength kept us strong. Your question about "why" we don't have cures yet...I think this is just part of life, and we really don't know why some people die at younger ages than others. It's hard to understand why we can't all make it to old age, but if we did, it would be even harder, I believe. One thing my dad said was that when we marry, we know that one spouse will most likely die before the other, but no one thinks it will happen at an early age, and most of us hope that we go the day before our spouse. That way we don't have to live one day without them. It's just awful, and it is the worst thing that we will probably ever experience, but we have to go on and we have to continue to live and to accept that we do. And I know that this is no real comfort, but just hopefully some confirmation of what you are feeling. Many people go through their entire lives never knowing that special love, and I'm so glad that you had such a special husband.