I guess fear and sadness have started to set in. After a right lower lobe removal and removable of some lymph nodes in the sub carinal region, I had radiation for 6 weeks and once a week chemo, and then 4 other chemo treatments. The lymph nodes in the subcarinal region are still enlarged and light up on the pet scan. I have just had my first Grandchild, and now I want to try anything I can to stay alive. What is there available, or should I just accept that the battle is over? Please, it's lonely here out on a limb. Martha