My life is falling apart at the seams and I really don't know what to do. My mom has a cancerous tumor on one of her kidneys. She was diagnosed just less than 4 months ago. My boyfriend has a cancerous tumor on the brain stem he was diagnosed about 3 years ago and to top it all of my best friend of 15 years died of Leukemia less than a year ago. I don't know what I am going to do if I lose my mom or my boyfriend - I love them both so much. I mean my mom is like my best friend and me and my boyfriend want to get married and have kids but now that he is getting worse from the cancer he don't even want me around anymore. He pushes me away, he hides things from me like I asked him what he found out the other day when he went to the doctor for treatment and he told me that everything was fine and he didn't find out anything. I know he is lying to me - how can I get him to tell me the truth and how can I reassure him that no matter what I am always going to love him and will never leave him? I mean he means the world to me how can I let him know that no matter what he decides to do regarding his treatment now rather he has him remove the tumor or leave it which if they remove it he can be paralyzed because of the location of it or if they leave it he can die in less than a year. I mean I would still love him if he was paralyzed and I would rather him be paralyzed than dead. so if anyone has any support you can give me or advice please respond.