I am 51 years old and in the prime of my life. I work full time (I am an RN) and I am a full time master's student. I am a mother of 2 married children and a grandmother of a 4 year old. I was diagnosed with MGUS, IGA (0.2%) with negative Bence Jones Protein, after an MRI for a rotator cuff tear showed bone marrow edema. I was scheduled for a bone marrow Biopsy last week, but cancelled the appointment. I am asymptomatic and feel well. I am paralyzed by fear. I need to know how to go on with my life without being in total denial. I want to be optomitstic and continue with my plans, but feel blunted and alone. My husband is great, but I don't want to burden my parents and children with this. I am so glad I found this site.