On 8/2/2007
marlene66 wrote:
My husband has stage III lymphoma. Were newlyweds. Also new to cancer. I am constantly busy. I took a 3 month family medical leave and returned to work part time. Just enough hours to keep my med. insurance. I am trying so hard to hold things together but it gets harder and harder. I feel as if I am losing it if that makes sense. I am so overwheled and exhausted. I don't tell him how I feel cause I don't want him to feel bad. It's not his fault. Theres no one for me to talk to. I feel alone I suppose. I know I'm not by reading your stories. I pray for everyone here and the ones who aren't. Thank you for reading this.
Hi Marlene,
My husband and I will celebrate our 25 th wedding anniversary this September. The day after our youngest son's graduation party July 15 th we had to take him to the hosptial. He has been diagnosed with Grade 4 Lymphomic brain tumor. He has started his treatment. In patient hopsitalization to administer the Methotrexate medicine. He goes in again for another treatment next week.
I too share your same thoughts of being overwhelmed. We have a family business with our 3 children. I have to work it is our livelihood and we pay our own very expensive health insurance plus deductibles and copays.
I am John's loving private nurse.
I get so annoyed at people who complain because they feel overwhelmed when they have nothing close to what you and I are dealing with.
These thoughts that we share are normal thoughts.
I vent to close friends and have a great support group of friends from a German club we belong to and from our church. I hope you have friends to talk to. That really helps.
We have hope and truly believe that after his year of treatment he is going to be cancer free.
I know it sounds awful, but you will look back at this and you will find something positive about what has happened.
John and I talk about his cancer. YOU HAVE TO. He probably needs to talk to you and tell you how much he loves you and tell you what his thoughts are. YOU NEED TO TALK TO HIM. This is what is going to get you through this.
This event is going to make you both stronger people. God knows what he is doing. Believe me he won't give you more than you can handle.
I hope you open up to each other - YOU HAVE TO.
Stay positive - God Loves you and He will take care of you both.