Hello,
I am 43 and was diagnosed with breast cancer in June 07. I endured a double mastectomy in July 07. My chemotherapy was 29 weeks long. My doctor told me the 15 weeks of ADRIAMYACIN would be harsh and the 12 weeks of TAXOL would be a breeze. It was just the opposite. I am 2 weeks post treatment and I feel worse everyday. Where shall I begin? Let’s start with the disgusting rash I have all over my body. I was told by my dermatologist it was gutate psoriasis from my immune system being knocked down. So my oncologist put me on a steroid. It helped with the rash but I blew up and gained a significant amount of weight. I was hungry all the time.
My body aches all the time. My feet and lower legs scream for mercy. My oncologist tells me I will be fine and it will all be better soon. I think the man is a genius but I think he is incorrect about this. My joints are so stiff. Some days I can’t open and close my hands my fingers hurts so bad. The skin on my toes was looking like onion peels about 3 weeks ago. My toe nails and fingernails feels like they are about to fall off. My lower legs are so sore and the muscles are so tight some days I can barely walk. I lie in bed every morning and convince myself to get out of bed. I have to stretch my body for about 10 minutes before I can put my feet on the floor. My first walk to the bathroom is slow and painful. I have to take one step at a time walking down the stairs because the pain in the back of the legs is so sharp. The tendons in my arms are swollen to the point I have to wear arm splints to stop the pain. I am very fortunate to have a man who massages my legs and feet almost every night. My feet feel like there are nails jammed into them. Then there is the tingling and numbness. You would think if they are numb they would not hurt but it’s agonizing.
My surgeon has a wonderful nurse practitioner who believes my pain. She suggested we research taking Lyrica when radiation is over to help with the nerve pain. I currently take vicoprophen about 3-4 times per day and I take 800 mg ibuprophen 1-2 times per day for the inflammation. Every morning I have a significant amount of liquid pouring out of my eyes and nose. I should take stock in Kleenex tissues I blow through so many. Today I tried to go without the pain medication and by 10:30 a.m. I could not take the pain anymore. I had to have my man drive my car because I could not close my hands around the steering wheel and my legs hurt so bad I could not sit still. My radiation Dr. told me we can’t start treatment for 4 weeks because my body is such a mess from chemo. I can’t think straight anymore. My thoughts are all jumbled in my head and I can’t get the words out correctly. This is not a good thing for a teacher.
I thought I was going crazy feeling all this pain every day. Thinking there was something wrong with me. Asking myself why do I hurt so badly? I am so glad I found this website. Now I know I am not alone. People ask me how I can go to work everyday. I tell them life goes on and the bills keep coming. I keep praying for and look forward to one pain free day.