Sandy g,
My daughter wrote to you previously about her dad and myself. I'm not sure how to help you. It did help me to go onto a message board and also a cancer support group online. just to talk to someone who could relate to how bad and how good it was did help me. Is skin cancer the type of cancer he has? If you look up cancer support groups, choose the type he has and get on that list there will be some wonderful people there that know exactly what you are dealing with. You can vent, cry and laugh with them. Yes, laugh. I know that's not something you expect but it does happen. Laughter is the best medicine sometimes. I was married to the sweetest man in the world. He had his bad days and good ones. We dealt with them all. He did get mean and angry at times. I just let it go. It wasn't the man I knew him to be. You have to live for today. Tomorrow will come soon enough and there will be stuff to deal with then. Don't let him push you away. That's a guy thing, he's probably trying to protect you from getting hurt. I don't know. I loved that man with all my heart and couldn't imagine life without him, but I've survived and only remember the good. It's hard to think that you can but you need to make some very good memories. Don't dwell on the bad stuff. You can be strong and do this. He's not being mean on purpose. He's not mad at you, it's the cancer he's mad at, you just happen to be there. Let him vent and let it go. You can't take it all to heart. He loves you and wants you there with him. And in the long run, that's all you can do. Be his strength, be his hero and love him no matter what. Tell him everyday how much you love him. Don't let him ever doubt it. Be strong and know you are in my prayers as you go through this journey.
Hugs & Prayers,