Hi all, I know that I haven't known you long but I thought I'd let you all know that Amber is gone.
I took her to visit my dad a few hours away from us on Friday. We had a wonderful little hike by the creek Friday morning. Amber seemed so normal and got to run like she loved to do. Then Saturday morning she was trying to pee much more often than she had been. I drove her home. When we got back to town I let her out of the car and she tried to pee but nothing was able to pass. I got my husband and we went to the vet. It was horrible. She tried to pee on their lawn, nothing, tried to pee in their lobby, nothing, in the exam room, nothing. She was whining.
We talked about putting in a stent. My understanding of the situation a few months ago was that they could put in a urinary catheter first and then the stent but the doctor said she didn't think she would be able to pass a catheter into her bladder. So it was either do the stent or have her put to sleep. I made the choice based on the fact that her lymph nodes were very enlarged and she was having a harder and harder time pooping as well. The vet thought that the stent would not have given her that much more time and that it wouldn't have been quality time.
It was the worst thing I have ever had to go through. My heart felt like it was shredded through the paper shredder. I don't know if I made the right decision or not. Now I feel that even one more day with her would have been better than this. I could hardly bare to leave her at the vet.
I did stay while they put her to sleep. It was very fast and easy. They used an anesthetic first so she was very sedate when they used the actual euthenasia drug.
She was my best friend, my baby, my everthing. I don't know what I will do without her. Life will not be the same.
Anyway, I don't know how much I will stick around, I guess most people wouldn't keep talking about cancer after their dog had passed. So, thanks for the advice, for talking and I am so sorry that all of your dogs have to go through this horrible thing.
Much love,
Claire