Missing My Daddy

I lost my dad to esophogeal cancer on July 25 2007.  It is very hard.  I well my whole family thought he was going to get surgery.  But it all happened so fast.  He did chemo and radiation and then was going on July 26, 2007 to set apt for his surgery.  But it was too late.

I am so sorry about your Dad. My brother died 4 years ago and sometimes I miss him so much I want to scream ! My mother was diagnosed with EC last Dec. She is doing well now. I try to think about all the good times with my brother and it sure makes me smile to think of him. I hope time will ease your pain too.

                                                             Pat

Hi Bethy11 - I lost my Dad to EC June 4th (well, actually not to the cancer, but to the chemo - his first round of chemo!)   My Dad was very healthy and at the end of February complained of difficulty swallowing.  He was then misdiagnosed as having curable thyroid.  He deteriorated quickly and we of course found out he did not have curable thyroid but rather stage IV EC.  He lost so much weight, had a feeding tube put in and a tracheostomy because the tumors were paralyzing his vocal chords and he couldn't talking and was having some difficulty breathing.  Anyway, at the end of his first round of chemo, his intestines, colon and liver were dieing off!  Long story short, he died.  I do consider it divine intervention though.  I know my Dad so well and just know he is better off than if he'd had to endure the final stage of this beast of a disease.  I am also proud to have been able to accompany him to every appointment and to be able to go over and talk with him and help him every day, along with my Mom.  Anyway, I was Daddy's little girl for 47 years and I have never experienced such pain.  I feel like my whole equilibrium is off - There is a hole in my entire being.  I feel like a kid even though I have three kids.  I feel like my emotional safety net has been pulled out from under me.  My Dad was my hero.  I miss him terribly.  I know how you feel.  Hang in there - I know my Dad would be very sad if he thought I wouldn't pick myself up by the bootstraps and live again.  My Dad truly loved life and he would want me to live and love every minute of it.  Somehow, I am finding the way, I hope you do too.  From one daughter to another - we are lucky we had such great Dads in our lives - my heart breaks for those who don't.  My thoughts are with you!   karen

I am thinking of you, I just lost my father in law in August he passed away 11 days following surgery. Try to find comfort in knowing that your dad is no longer in pain and that he is watching over you now. Live your life to make him smile....

God Bless

Janet

Hi Bethy 11:   Please remember that your daddy will always love you.  I lost my dad many years ago but I still know that he loves me.  Right now my son is fighting EC and he has 2 little girls who love him dearly.  Someday, you will only remember all of the good times that you had with your daddy.  Please try and stay strong like he would want you to.

Best wishes and God Bless

 

Mom, Lynn

Mother of Robbie

Hang in there!  It does get easier, never easy, but easier.  I lost my dad to lung cancer 4 1/2 years ago. It was quick- 5 weeks from the diagnosis until he was gone.  Now I know he's an angel watching over us, keeping us safe.

Beth...I am so, so sorry for your loss.  I lost my Dad to EC 5/16/06.  I know and feel exactly what you are feeling.  The only comfort I can offer you, other than totally understanding, is that your Dad is not in pain anymore.  I saw my Dad, a big, strong man, waste away to skin and bones.  He was a proud man, so asking for help was not his way.  He was always the one people ran to for help.  When he passed, it was devastating for those he left behind, but I know he isn't suffering anymore.  He doesn't have to be frustrated anymore that he can't do things for himself.  He may not "physically" be here, but I know he is with me and watching over me, and I guarantee you that your Dad is watching over you too.  One day at a time.  I can't tell you it gets easier, but I can tell you the pain will slowly subside and will be replaced with those warm, fuzzy feeling memories that will make you smile instead of cry.  My prayers are with you and yours.  God bless.