I know how you feel, my husband never gets good news when we see his doctor and so everytime we go my stomach is tied up in knotts, i have found a clinic that our doctor does not know we are going to and they always make us feel relaxed and hopeful about his recovery, he has stage 4 colon cancer and this other clinic is doing IV Vit c treatments 3 times a week and he is starting to feel a little better. check out www.brightspot.org they make you feel like a human and not a disease. wish you luck for the future, i know how hard this is to deal with.