Update On Shannon

Hi all I havent posted in a while but I do miss your kind words. Shannon is on her g tube and that's it. Not much time left I know but we still try to get up everyday and move on. Or at least I do. Never made it to Disneyland and my little girl doesnt understand but thats the way it goes. Shann made it out for a couple of hours on christmas to her moms and my parents(we alllive within 5 min inour little town of 15000 ) but the holidays were not great. We are young and should be out enjoying them not worrying. My little girl got spoiled( of course) and my big Girl (shan) got thediamonds I could never afford when we got married.

 

Shes in a lot of pain now and the oxycoden doesnt seem to work so I believe they are going to give her the morphine sites in her legs to help her out . No food intake barely any water I just hope she doesnt suffer to much longer. I want her here but I dont want her to live another couple of months in pain. this sucks. torn between my wife being around and my wife moaning in pain when she sleeps. what do you do? 35 too young for this.,

mike

 

Hi Mike-So sorry to hear things aren't going well.  I can't imagine the anguish of being where you are.  We felt young being diagnosed at 49, and with a much older child being raised.  I practice a form of energy healing called tongren, and although it is unbelievable they have had many successes with cancer patients.  There is a conference call line that is specifically for Stage 4 cancers that meets from 12-12:15 on Monday-Wednesday-Friday-Saturday-Sunday.  If you call in you give your name and sit to receive the energy with your palms open and up (or lay down if more comfortable).  It could give your wife some relief and better quality time.  Before tongren was developed, I cared for a friend with metastasized pancreatic cancer for her last two weeks.  One of the men I currently practice tongren with came to do chi gong with her and I was always so surprised by how much more peaceful and comfortable she was after he came.  The conference line is a toll call, but I really believe it is worth a try.  The number is --Message edited by CancerCompass staff. For personal protection, phone number removed. Consider private reply. Please review CancerCompass Member Guidelines at http://www.cancercompass.com/common/guidelines.html--Give name and sit to receive energy.  Will hold you in my thoughts and prayers.   

Hi Mike,

    I am so sorry Shan is so sick. It just isn't fair what this cancer does to people. I wish I could say something to help but all I can offer is prayer. I will pray for all of you. Thank you for updating and hang in there.

                                                                                  Pat

hi Mike,

I went through the same thing with my sister 5 years ago then with my mom last year..I could tell you it gets easier but it really doesnt. I think it is one of the hardest things in life that we have to do..But keeping tremendous faith and love seems to heal the pain.

hugs,

Cindy

 

On 1/2/2008 mikeshan wrote:

Hi all I havent posted in a while but I do miss your kind words. Shannon is on her g tube and that's it. Not much time left I know but we still try to get up everyday and move on. Or at least I do. Never made it to Disneyland and my little girl doesnt understand but thats the way it goes. Shann made it out for a couple of hours on christmas to her moms and my parents(we alllive within 5 min inour little town of 15000 ) but the holidays were not great. We are young and should be out enjoying them not worrying. My little girl got spoiled( of course) and my big Girl (shan) got thediamonds I could never afford when we got married.

 

Shes in a lot of pain now and the oxycoden doesnt seem to work so I believe they are going to give her the morphine sites in her legs to help her out . No food intake barely any water I just hope she doesnt suffer to much longer. I want her here but I dont want her to live another couple of months in pain. this sucks. torn between my wife being around and my wife moaning in pain when she sleeps. what do you do? 35 too young for this.,

mike

 

 

Dear Mike,

I'm so very sorry to hear that Shannon is not well.  I can't even imagine how awful it is for you and your little girl right now.  All I can offer is prayers that Shannon will soon be peaceful and with no more pain.

Gentle hugs,

Azzie

Mike, I am so sorry that things are not going well.  I can only imagine how hard it is for you, your wife and your little girl.  When my cancer was at its worst stage, I remember thinking that the hardest thing that I did was look in the faces of those who loved me so and see the pain an anguish there.  I will pray for all of you. God Bless Each of You. Please keep us posted.

Gerri

Dear Mike,

I am so sorry for you and your family.  I know exactly how you feel.  My husband is 36 and last year was diagnosed with ec.  We have 2 children 7 & 12.  He went thru chemo, radiation & pdt.  Up until 3 weeks ago was finally going strong.  Biopsies and scans had come back clear.  But now he continues to vomit and Dr. here believes his lymph nodes are swollen causing compression just pass the stomach.  Only a very small amount of liquids are passing thru, so he is on a tpn bag.  He received treatment at CTCA in OK and his next appointment is the 13th for an EUS.

What you said about your wife's pain, not wanting her to suffer, but wanting her to still be here with you touched me.  I feel the same way.  I have a very strong faith and although i just cant imagine living this past year over again, God has truly blessed us, carried us and given us the strength to keep living life day to day.  I will pray for your family.  Just know you are not alone.

Sincerely,

Kristie, Ca               ps   We had planned a trip to Disneyland too.

Hi Mike - I am so very sorry to hear Shannon is not doing well.  She is a fighter and like you, I too couldn't bear the thought of my Dad suffering.  When the chemo took him, I felt it was the miracle we had been hoping for.  I know how tough this is for you Mike and I know Shannon is worrying about you and your daughter.  You have proven to be incredibly strong and compassionate.  You and your daughter will be okay someday.  Let Shannon know you will be okay - I am sure that is important to her.  All I can say is you do not walk this road alone - we are walking it with you.  Some of us have already walked it before you.  Please know you all are in my heart and my prayers.  Don't give up and remember, look in all directions for that miracle.  God speed - karen

Hi Mike:  So very sorry to hear that Shannon is not doing well.  Christmas was not the best around our home either considering that our beloved son, Robbie, was missing.  I know how you are feeling - wanting Shannon here but also not wanting her to suffer.  I too felt that in October when my Robbie lost his battle at age 35.  He left 2 little girls ages 9 and 5.  Like Shannon, he was very strong and put a courageous fight.  I remember the night before he passed away.  I watched him as he struggled to talk and was having dry heaves.  As much as I wanted him to stay and bury me, and see his little girls grow up I could not wish him to suffer so.  I told him that I loved him more than life itself and that I did not want to lose him but it broke my heart in two to watch him suffer.  I also told him that if Jesus came to take His Hand and go because we would look after his wife and girls.  He kissed me and gave me a hug and told me how much he loved me and I told him how much I loved him.  The next morning he slipped away to Heaven in his sleep very peacefully.  It was a storybook ending as Robbie awoke that morning and for the first time in 3 days took food by mouth, held and kissed his wife and girls and went for a nap.  I know how hard it is to lose someone so young and it just all seems so senseless.  I am still suffering every day wanting my son here but not wanting him to suffer.  I know it is hard but the grief counsellor tells me that some day I will be glad that I gave my son permission to go.  I will continue to pray for you, Shannon, and your lovely daughter.  I am at peace with the thought that he was able to die at home with his family rather than in a hospital room or in hospice.  I am glad that Shannon was spoiled at Christmas.  I hope that God puts His loving Arms around you and Shannon.  God Bless Mike!!!

Love Lynn (Robbie's Mom)