Hello Dana,
I am so sorry for your loss. I have had many experiences with contact after death. my dear father died of cancer and, at his memorial they played a song that was his favorite. Every time I have been really scared or stressed I hear that song -- on the radio or played live -- highly unusual! I was in a serious auto accident a year after he died and was unable to drive for 9 months. When I got in the car I was very scared. the radio, which I didn't remember having turned on, was playing -- what do you think? His song....I was sure that he was there for me as he always had been in life. My grandmother too came to me. I felt my waterbed move like someone was sitting down on it a few days after her death and I smelled her distinctive perfume very strongly. This happened three times. I have had many more contacts, When you feel up to it you might find a Spiritualist church and attend their message service (they have spirit circles where they contact those who have gone before us). I have found it very comfoting. I was recently diagnosed with Lymphoma -- an incurable cancer, My best friend, who dropped dead 4 years ago very suddenly, has been in my dreams nightly - as if she is guiding me through the mine field. There are many good books on after death communication. Read a few. I can give you some titles if you are unable to find them. I know you are broken hearted, and a book won't heal the pain, but it CAN help. YOu have that lovely child too as a part of her! How lucky that is....With love and hope for your emotional healing, Leona