Confused, Sad And Mad

I am having a bad morning. Yesterday my Mom went to the chemo doc for a meeting on what to do next. She just finished one round of carboplatin for her cervical cancer stage IV. She had to take a lighter dose because of her kidney function. But anyway they would like to do more treatment. They even told her she could do 2 weeks on 1 week off. My mom told them she doesn't know whay she wants to do yet. And made an appointment for Feb.1. Her rad teatments are done 28 I believe. As far as her pelvic exam the onc. said he "thinks it shrunk". Thinks? ok. What makes me confused is my moms decision, I know and understand that her decisions are hers and hers only, but it was only one round with minimal side affects besides feeling a little "punky" as she says. I just dont get it. She talks about wanting the quality of life not extending it 3 more months. I am sad because I am soon to be planning a wedding and always dreamed of her and I doing it together. She is so crafty and detailed. I need her. I am not being selfish just mad, mad that she believes what she believes. Stats say her survival rate is poor 1%,5% whatever it is I wish she could just have hope and believe that maybe she could be that1 or 5%. Ultimitely, I know the decisions are hers I quess I just wish I agreed.

I'm sorry you are going through that. I hope you are able to talk to your mother and that you are both able to encourage each other.

Ask the chemo Dr. about taxotere-my friend's tumor seems to have responded to that one the best.  Also at risk of getting yelled at by traditionalists- IV vitamin C can reduce tumors and does lighten the bad side effects of  chemo- leading to more quality of life while in treatment.  You'll have to find an alternative therapy clinic and ask for it- it is not approved for cancer treatment, but some studies out of Kansas are giving evidence that IVC has helped reduce tumors.  They give about 50,000 ml of IVC-3-5 times a wk and insurance won't pay, but it is fairly reasonable.  You won't find it advertised for cancer, but I say if it can't hurt might help-why not?  Good luck and tell your mom to keep fighting.