Missing My Mom

It will 9 yrs this year that I lost my mom.

Sometimes it feels like yesterday.

My mom and I had our differences but I still love her. We just had different ideas.

I sometimes wish I could of spoke to her more before she went so I could tell her how much she meant to me. I did, but she was not coherent.

I had a lot of dreams of us fighting after she died. But I rarely dream of her now.

I was her care giver until she went to pallitive.

She was only 49.

Does any one else wondering if your mom still loves you, that when you see her again she will be there for you?

I wish I knew.

Dear Goldy: My mother died at age 41--40 years ago. I remember how much I loved her, and still miss her and cry for her. You really can't change anything in your relationship with her because she is gone. I believe that God loves us all so much that this life is not all there is--in fact we are only here--all of us for a short time. But the love in our hearts lives forever, and someday we will be reunited and be with God and our loved ones forever. I'm reading the book: The Purpose Driven Life. It might be helpful to you too. Write to me anytime. Be of good cheer. Reflect on the good times with your Mom.

Dear Goldy: My mom passed on April 13, 2001. We had our good times and our bad ones. I had her for over 56 years. She was almost 94 years old. I still miss her sometimes so much. I reach for the phone to call her for dinner then remember she is gone. Something that helped me a lot was a story I read about a son and his mother. It was kind of extreme but my mom suffered from dementia, alzheimer's type for about five years before she passed on and there were so many things I wanted to tell her and couldn't. I was her primary care giver, too, for the last couple years. This son had actually killed his mother, or been involved in her murder. He repented and asked God to forgive him then accepted Jesus as his Lord and Savior. When he went to Heaven his mom met him with open arms and forgave him, too. This was a story from a woman who actually died and went to Heaven and saw their reunion. The mother was so excited to see her son and he was so grateful that she forgave him that their tale ministered to me so much. If that mother loved her son that much I know my mom will be waiting for me with open arms and a great big hug. Thank God she accepted Jesus as her Lord and Savior before she passed. I look forward to the day when I will be there with her. I was diagnosed in February with breast cancer metastasized to my bones and marrow. I don't know how much longer before I will be with her but we never know that anyway, do we? I hope this helps you as much as it did me when I read about that son and his mother. God bless you and try to remember the good times not the bad ones. Ask for forgiveness if you need to for anything and remember how much you love your own children. I love my children so much I would forgive them anything, too. In Jesus love, Louise M.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

I hope the strengh will be there for what happens. I pray for your health.

Thank you for yourkind words. Very beautiful.

Goldy

I can use all the prayers I can get. God is so good to us. Last night I listened to a testimony from a lady that was healed from MS and lesions on her brain. She said the hardest part was between the diagnosis and the proof of healing. Boy, does that seem true. I have the tumor markers checked tomorrow to see where they are since March. She said it always seems worse first before the healing manifests so whatever the tumor markers say I know I am healed by Jesus' stripes, and I'm standing on that! God always has a "word" for us in just the right timing. He is a good God! Louise

Hello all,
This is the first time I’ve been on a forum with this topic. I lost my mother to melanoma cancer 8 yrs ago, April 21st. And I’m finding it hard the older I’m getting to deal with this. I was 19 at the time, when I think about when it all happened its like a blur, I didn’t get to say anything to her, we all knew what was happening but its like it just didn’t register, and I wish it had so I could have spent every minute with her, but I didn’t. I didn’t tell her I love her.
I miss her more and more every day, more so as my son gets older, who she never got to meet. I fantasize about what it would be like if she was here today.
I have my good days and my bad. I know its hard for everybody, I was wondering if anyone has any advice or ideas as how to deal with this?
I’m from Australia and on mother’s day a lot of councils organize a tree planting day for children without mothers, in memory of their mother. I missed it this yr unfortunately but its something I look forward to next yr.
My mother and I had a pretty good relationship, but I always wonder what it would be like now as I’m a young adult. If anyone has any advice, I’d love to hear from you.
Thanks for listening.