Hello Bernie!
I felt like I was looking at a mirror reflection of my own first experience! God Bless you I know what you are going through. I too was pretty terrified of chemo at first. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. But not easy either. There are CD's out there - harp music & flute music - that are specifically made for relaxation during chemo. They say that the more relaxed you are the less harsh the after affects are. It seemed to work for me. Also, I've read many books that have helped me. I'm hearing that most cancers are caused by stress ! Well more how we manage stress, and these books have helped me learn to manage my own stress better. I can recommend a few that have REALLY helped me. You can get them on Amazon used - very cheap ! Bernie Seigel - "How to Heal Yourself and Louise Hay - "You Can Heal Your Life" . Just getting into a better frame of mind can really help you get better. I, with all my heart, believe this.
I'm also drinking Essiac Tea - I get mine from a private dealer - which is much cheaper and better than the the health food stores (it is pretty expensive in the stores) but this too is also known to help heal cancer !
Also green tea - I don't necessarily like green tea, so I buy the extract and put it in my water. That is supposedly like drinking 15 cups a day for one dropper full, and I can barely taste it.
I also take cancer fighting vitamins - natural ones - Fish Oil, Flax Oil Vitamins and Juice Plus and more. Plus these help you feel better. But you might want to ask your doctor ! I wouldn't want to recommend anything that might interfere with your treatment.
And I do the meditation and imagine my body well. If you think about it, you get all stressed out and get a headache - that right there proves that stress affects your body - so why can't it affect in the opposite way? I feel low stress and peace of mind can also heal your body and make it well.
I consider the above like my medication - or like chemo. I haven't had to take chemo since December and my counts have stayed down (CA125) then I got very busy and slacked up - well nearly quit because I thought I was ok, and my count started to rise again. It's only 29 though and I'm now back on my regiment, and realize I will probably need to do this for life to stay well.
I know it's hard to stay positive and if you can't all the time, that is completely natural ! So don't feel guilty - ever - if you sometimes say "why is this happening to me?" But try not to dwell on it ! Talking to other people who are experiencing the same thing helps ! I met several life long friends during chemo ! But you have to dwell on the positive things that cancer as brought you rather than the bad things!
If you let it it, cancer can be a life changing thing for the good. It does help you appreciate life much more ! And see the world in a different way. You also find out how much people care about you !
Ok, I'll get off my soap box now ! I'm very passionate about this, so I shout it whenever I can !
I will be praying for you Bernie. Let me know how you do ! You can always email me at
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Love,
Deb