Mild Dysplasia

Hi y'all! I am 20 years old. I recently got my second pap smear and it came back positive for HPV. However, the bad news didn't stop there. A week later I got a colposcopy and the doctor found a lession so she did a biopsy. A week later the doctor called and told me I have mild dysplasia (CIN 1). I know things could be a lot worse but this is just the beginning. My immune system is very supressed. I'm stressed with schoool, this and the fact that I don't know how to deal with this alone. I know HPV is an STD. I've only had sex twice. The first guy told me he would get tested for me and come down and be with me if I needed him to. I told the second guy and he hasn't said one word to me. This is so hard to deal with especially if you don't know where you exaclty got it from. I'm very frustrated with the second guy. I'm trying to build my immune system but I'm stressing over stupid things, I just need to except what I cannot change. I can't change the past but its hard to live with the present when the past is knocking at your door over and over again. I'm taking stress vitamins, fish oil and drinking green, black, and purple tea every day. I hope there isn't any more bad new ahead. I really don't think it has hit me yet how bad this really is. I think I'm in shock. I haven't even cried yet. I'm just like a zombie through this whole process. I can't believe this is happening to me. I think this is horrible and I wish that no one had to go through this ordeal. I haven't even experienced life to the fullest or loved someone. Who will ever want to marry me now that I'm a virus that can infect them? :( Everything happens for a reason but I haven't exactly figured this one out.

Hi! I just wanted to say don't fret too much. I am in a somewhat similar boat as you and working on the day to day struggle of accepting the current circumstances but not letting it affect my life to a great degree. I am 24 and just had an abnormal pap come back with HPV and mild dysplasia. I have scheduled an appointment next week for colposcopy and biopsy if needed - definitely nervous but trying to stay optimistic. You know, stress is inevitable (i know, I work full time and am a grad student full time), but it can be regulated. The way I look at it - give yourself a day or two to spazz out, since you know you will anyway. Then, calm down and say, "I know this is not the best situation but it's here until I find a solution so I may as well tackle it head on and just deal with it as it comes." I think maintaining a healthy attititude about the whole ordeal is almost as important as getting treatment. When you keep a positive outlook it enables your brain and body to focus on healing as well as on other things that you can do something about (eating healthy, exercising, shopping!). That's my take on it anyway.

 I guess my point is to take a deep breath, relax, and see what happens. Whatever happens is gonna come along regardless of the about of worry you put into it. (I am a bit of a hypocrite on this though - who knows how many forums and sites i have researched just in the past day!).

Best of luck to you and if you want to talk or vent or complain or just let out some worries to an empathetic here let me know! :)

 P.S. don't worry about the jerk guy. It's his problem not yours. You made the effort to inform him, if he wants to be an a** about it just let it go. :) You have more important things to spend your energy on!

oh and another P.S. - many many men will still want to marry you regardless of your status. Trust me! This is not a deal breaker! Not everyone will accept it immediately, but most mature men will realize that this is not THAT big of a deal. I guess I can't speak from experience as I am not married, but I do have a serious boyfriend and believe me i stressed over having to explain it to him - and then he said, "Do you really think that would make me not want to see you anymore?" I was amazed by how easily he accepted it and just went on with his day. So anyway, just know that millions of women have gotten married and had HPV and probably mild dysplasia too (even worse) and prob didn't even know they had the problem. And their hubbies didn't either. :) I hope that helped!

Hi..I'm in the same situation as you are and I feel your pain..A month ago I was diagnosed with HPV because I was in the middle of an outbreak..I freaked out..I seriously layed on the exam table and cried for like 30 minutes..But I went thru the treatments for it and hoped that everything would be ok..THEN just today I got my pap results and it came back with mild dysplasia..So I get to go thru all of the things that I know that you do..I have found that the best way for me to deal with these things is to educate others..And I'm not saying to announce to the world that you have an STD..Because let's just face it..No one wants to do that..I just tell people..And not everyone..to be in charge of their own bodies..Because we are the only ones that can do anything about it..I just want to say that I think that we're both going to be okay..Ya know..It's not easy..But it's just something that I have to deal with..