Now what?

Glenn,

You're a stud!! Good for you man.

Rick

Thanks Teresa.

With one radiation left, I have to say that I've managed to do pretty well.

Prayers/family/attitude/ and yoga go along ways to getting through it.

Rick

 ThreePutt:

We are all different. I always believed I would get well. As I had such a deadly case of end stage Multiple Myeloma, I did not have any options. The treatment I chose worked exceedingly well and I was diagnosed in October 2004 . I said to myself "When the daffodils bloom in the spring I will be well" I meditated on that every day plus I saw my body healthy and killing off the cancer. When the daffodils came my bone marrow showed no cancer.  I still had it in my spine but kept saying by this time next year I will be healed.  I was..Not everyone has this ability but you are what you believe you are.  Big part of being well. Picture yourself in 5 years on a wonderful holiday on the beach , feet in the sand and being completely healthy.  Always view yourself as well and healed. I used to be an RN and we did this with patients with cancer and pain. Never knew I would have to do it for myself.  Take care and be well. MMS 

On 2/20/2008 ThreePutt wrote:

I had to wait three months. They told me that if I was tested too soon there could be false positives.

The longer you go, the less you'll think about it. You'll still think about it everyday, but not every minute.  Think of a clean test as not having to worry about it so much for six more months.

 Gayleann:

I also found a form of depression once I was well, and life was not exciting  or how it was before Cancer.  I found out through help this is normal. We go through such horrendous pain, suffering and looking death in the face, it takes a lot to get back to normal.  My "adivsor" told me that if I had not stated that they would have worried about me.

I went out and purchased 2 Budgies (You call them parakeets here in the US) Their song and beauty were a great thing for me to heal myself of the  "blues" it is not easy. Sometimes we feel guilty we survive and other around us did not. So you are perfectly normal and thanks for talking about this as it is not mentioned often.....Many can relate!!!   MMS

On 2/21/2008 gayleann wrote:

Interesting posts! I wanted to add my 2 cents here: I wondered if I were alone in the fact that for months I was the center of all my loved ones attention-as well as all the Dr's and nurses, etc-and after all the hoopla of that, I felt abandoned! It was like my life WAS my cancer and then-not anymore. I didn't know what to do with myself or my time. It was so consuming. Then normal life started to dribble back and I found myself bored and unremembering what normal life was all about. I live (and do business) in a small town, and had strangers as well as friends sending cards, flowers, gifts, praying for me, etc etc. And the local hospital/clinic personnel were attentive and super. I was "special". And then, not so much anymore. All because of cancer!!!!!!!!!! So it's been an interesting transistion back to normal Gayle, wothour being defined by illness.

 The other point is the trying to not worry---days were/are OK, but it's the nights when I can't fall asleep and the "What If's" start! Doesn't matter what anyone tells you, they can't stop your mind; and sometimes neither can you. So I think, and relive the whole ordeal, and wonder what I'll do IF it recurs. I'm at the mercy of my own overactive brain-try as I might not to be. I think that's normal and will get better with time. As everything else has!!!!!!!!!!    Gayle, SCC, unknown primary, Stage IV, 10 mos out of treatments (cisplatin, IMRT, dissection)