Hello Susan~~
Sorry it has taken me so long between messages, especially at this difficult time for you when you must be thinking of Denys many times a day and remembering your loss. Hopefully you are starting to be triggered in your memories with some happy things, and these happy memories are making you smile once and a while. Gradually these more happy memories should over whelm any others and you should have a warm happy smile on your face when thinking about Denys. Of course, all of this takes time!
I have had a very uncomfortable month with the kidney stones and they were finally 'blasted' a couple of weeks ago. This was supposed to have left me with a kidney full of sand, which should have painlessly passed. But this has not been the case and it has taken me all this time just to get a bit of health back. At the moment, Bob has to take the wheelchair in the car just in case I over estimate my walking ability. Unfortunately, I can only go 10-25 steps before having to sit and rest for up to 5 minutes -- not really very good. Oh well, I'm not complaining because I really am getting a bit better -- even it is only a BIT!! I have to have another CT scan in two weeks, then the doctor will decide what will be done next. I don't know if this is related to the MM or not, but it certainly doesn't help!!
My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you Susan as you travel the road of grief and loss. I do pray that things are starting to ease for you and that Denys - her name and memories, bring a smile to you more often than not. Time does heal - trite though it may sound - and hopefully that happy memory smile will come. Best wishes, Cath