There is not one second that goes by everyday that i don't think of my Dad. I try to keep busy with work but i find myself thinking and waiting for that PHONE CALL... If only my dad could have gone for a second oppinion , maby they would have diagnosed the cancer sooner. And done more to prevent it from spreading. I feel so helpless and i hate seeing him like that. I pray for him 24/7 believing that God will help us through this and spair him from the pain. But sometimes i ask why, why did it happen to him, to our family, he is so special to me i cant imagine him not being there. He lost so much weight in just a couple of months i didn't even recognised him. To see him in that hospital bed , with all of those pipes,and machines... My heart goes out to every one that has loved one's who has cancer and to those that has past away.
Last year my step dad died, he also had cancer, and now to find out my dad has cancer to... There is so many thoughts that goes through my mind, some positive and some negative. But i know that prairs will help us through this just as it did wath my step dad. It's never easy to loose someone that you love , but i believe that everything happines for a reason. Eventhough we don't always understand it, God knows best. He woun't ever put anything in our live that we can't handle. Everyone of us goes through different feelings and emotions but the one thing we must never forget is to stay positive, even though it's hard and it feels like we can't go on, we must think of what our loved ones would want us to do.We must never stop hoping and believing and loving.
I wish that everyone that has difficuilt situations in there lives, to find peace and strengt to take one step at a time and live everyday with love and hope.
PS: Please pray for each other and for me for strength, thank you.