On 3/29/2008
Danid1 wrote:
My Mom is stage 4 cervical cancer-she went through one round of treatment and called it quits. They gave her 6-9 mns. That was in Nov. 07. In Jan 08 we decided to push my wedding up-to make sure my Mom would be there with me. I need her she is my best friend. She is the only person in this world who really knows me. I talked to her about this in Jan. she said she would be there regardless of what happens. It was the first time we cried together. She said at least she got to see me get engaged and be happy. And she is happy with that. She didnt know what I should do about pushing it up. But I left her house that day with that idea of making my wedding even sooner. People said it could be good for her ya know to fight maybe. but that doesnt seem to be. My shower was mar 08, and she didnt come. She said if she cant be comfortable on her couch for to long she felt she wouldnt be comfortable there. I told her I understand. I dont know how this is really making her feel. Does she wake up everyday wondering if she'll make it? Thats not what I wanted. Needless to say this past Tuesday we called in hospice, which she was ok with. She is still alert and all but not getting out of bed anymore, and not eating much and some days nothing at all. I am so sad. She talks with me about all my plans and she has been a part of the planning- everything I did was online-so we looked together. And that is what I wanted. But it is so soon and she is not doing good right now. I have been feeling like I am in a race with dealth. And I cant stand it. I pray everyday for strength for her and for us to get through this. But Im so sad of what could be. I dont think its fair to her, my fiance or myself. I feel like I've made a terrible mistake. Please pray for us.
Dani
Dani,
I am so sorry for your bitter sweet situation. My late wife had cervical cancer first years ago and beat it! She fought hard and suffered a lot but she said it was worth it. That was over 30 years ago. She passed away Oct. 31st, 2007 @ 11:25 PM from Multiple Myeloma Cancer after a long fight.
She didn't want Hospice until the very last day in our home. I took care of here through the whole thing I wouldn't trade that for anything in this world accept to have her back.
She knew when she was going to pass away and tried to comfort me until she was unconscience.
If you know your mom as a best friend you likely know that if she is truly tired of fighting and in pain. If she is? She needs to just be as comfortable as possible.
You have a difficult time ahead of you Dani. Keep your strength & faith by spiritually thinking.
My prayers are with you & your family!
Mark Anthony