Kathy I can relate, My prayers are with you to be strong , for your husband, but to yourself, also, its sooo hard, I do understand, I lost my father and husband to cancer, just recently 5mt ago, you never seem to forget, it is ok to do what your doing, it keeps you focus and grounded It is in gods hands, because everyone is different, I have learn that, I get angry, sometimes I dont want to leave the house, but I know I have to be strong for my father and husband, plus I have two beautiful daughters, and one grandson, that need me more then ever now, So as much as I may want to give up , I cant. I pray for you and your family.