Hi Brian. I too unfortunately know how you feel. I lost my mother to pancreatic cancer on Dec 27. She was 68 years old and not just my mom, but my friend, confidant, cheerleader, Nana to my kids and now there is a huge hole in my heart. I even find myself doing crazy things like Googling her name just to see if something shows up. Grief is a crazy thing but something I heard today made my day somewhat more liveable. Would my mother have wanted to leave a legacy of love or a monument of pain?
Good luck my friend. In time, we will feel a new normal.
Lisa