Greetings to all who responded to my messages and provided hope. My Husband left my arms on June 6th at 7:36am. I am still in shock and really can't believe he isn't here any longer. Because of issues with his family...lack of/and deliberate absence of support, my complete astonishment at no condolences, sympathy or support during his leaving ceremony (I can't say the "f" word) left me so bewildered I concentrated on that for almost three weeks after his passing. I resolved that issue by just praying for them everytime I think about their lack of compassion. A week ago it hit me full in the face that my loving husband of 28 years is not here. I honestly don't know how I am going to make it through this, or even if I want to.
My message to all who are fighting this nasty beast, concentrate on you and your loved one. Don't give anyone a minute of time, spend it with your loved one. I supported his family to even creating a web site for them to be aware of what was happening with my husband, and because I wasn't what they wanted me to be, I have been compltely ignored and talked about in the worst way. Several letters of what a selfish person I was (because my husband didn't want to see his family) and very bad things said about me..
No I have to pray for them, since I have thought of them again instead of my Husband. My sweet Husband who I will miss more than I can ever say. I start grief counseling tomorrow and pray it will help me find peace and how to place my Husband in an honored place in my heart that will allow me to get on with life.
Honestly, I still can't believe he isn't here and I miss him more than life itself.
Be good, thank you and I hope all of you are able to make it through this.
Thanks for support for my sweet Husband.
Marcy