It Will Be Almost A Year

This Mother's Day will be the hardest for us.  Our mom was dx 12-31-06 she had passed away on 5-31-07.  Thing started to go wrong on Mother's Day of last year.  I was doing better but getting closer to Mother's Day I feeling different.  Last year everything changed in my life on Mother's Day.  I can't go to my mom grave because I live in Michigan and she was buried in Illinois.  I made a wreath for her grave my cousin is going to put it on her grave for us.  At work they talk about Mother's Day I listen but I walk away most of the time.  Honest going to the counselor help alot but this week is starting to be hard the closer it gets to Mother's Day my heart misses my mom so MUCH.  I hate that this monster took my mom away from us to early.  I know to will heal and I do feel that.  I don't visit this site to much, because I know how hard everyone is dealing with this.  I have changed from this all my friend tell me this.  They miss the old me I tell them if you had to go through what I have been through you might feel the same way.  To tell everyone on this web site.  Take one day at a time.  Tell your loved one how much you mean to them.  Spend as much time because you don't know when this monster will grow back.  It took two weeks to find out that my mom has an infection that was herpes infection on the brain. They did two spinals the second told them that.  To also find out someone on this site told me to make sure she was not bleeding on the brain.  Because they told me if she is bleeding on the brain she will go down hill.  I asked the doctors and they told me know I think they didn't see it.  I know the doctors tried hard to figure out those two weeks what was going on with my mom.  They told us that finding this infection they can give her the right medicine and with in 48 hours your mom will be back to normal.  She wasn't they found she was bleeding on the brain and lot of other things happen.  I am glad I spent as much time as I did with my mom.  But I just wish I could of talk to her one more time.  See on Mother's Day my mom wasn't able to talk to us.  So I hope everyone on this site will as much time as you can with your loved ones.  Because I really wish I can spend Mother's Day with her one more time.

Take Care,

Trish

Trish,

I am so very sorry for your loss!! I know how difficult that must be for you! we are in waiting for a diagnosis for my husband as they strongly think he has a rare form of lymphoma cancer.  You are right..... I am not the same either. we have been going through symptoms for a year now and it does change you but for me I have grown closer to the lord in my walk and you can find so much strength in him! I promise! Let your heart go there and you will find the strength you need. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers this mother day!! Let your heart go there... it is worth it!!

Tracie

Wife of the strongest man I know and Mom to 3 great kids!

Trish,

I lost my father on 11-8-07 to brain cancer. I think everyday about him and wish he was here. I went through a depression stage to about febuary and than I realized my dad would be angry if he knew I was doing this. I still am not my old self but how can you be after you see a illness kill a loved one. My dad was only 68 years old and the best person you could ever meet.I miss him, but I know life goes on it's not fair but it does. Be strong and on my mother's day take some pictures out of your mom and be happy for all the times you shared. On my dad's birthday i wrote him a letter it seemed to help I know that he could never read it but he may be hearing it from my heart.God Bless everyone that has been down this long terrible road.

Brenda