Scientists suspect low-dose effects have led to global epidemic
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by Longing on Wed Sep 12, 2012 05:35 AM
When I read your message, I could feel what you are describing. It's like a dripline of pain that goes through my veins. I can't get away from it. It's like dispair. And then all at once, something insignificant happens and the pain is gone. It's been going on since my mother died two years ago. The pain is still there, but the fuzziness behind my forehead is starting to clear.
My mother died of an unidentified form of cancer which they decided to diagnose as lung cancer, even though they never found where it originated. She was ill for three years and I shared the care of her with my sibs. Fights broke out among us about her care and I watched helplessly as my own life fell apart.
The picking up the pieces doesn't seem a straightforward process. I can observe they are broken, but I don't find the will to fix them or start anew. I think this is what grief is about. Drugs, even aspirin, can help somewhat, making appointments with friends to go out, going on with the routines of your regular activities can help, but something changed deep inside and it became difficult for me to find the road again. Like I went off the road and when I got back up to get back on it, it wasn't there anymore and I'm not sure where the shovel is to start building a new one.
Thanks for the many helpful comments.
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