Debra:
I said goodbye to my own sweet Dad on Janaury 31st, after a year long battle with GBM...I know personally what you are going through right now. When you say you miss your dad, I know that you REALLY miss him. I wish I could tell you that the worst days are behind you. I have really struggled with all the holidays since Dad passed away. And I still have a bad day now and then or even just a bad moment. We don't avoid talking about Dad or his cancer, since it is a part of our history now, but we do try to focus on the good.
When Dad died, we had a scholarship fund established in his memory and we are currently working on a benefit being held this fall to raise funds for that scholarship fund. For me, this has been very therapeutic, because it allows me to see something good coming out of the single most devastating event of my lifetime.
Nothing we ever do will bring Dad back to this earth, but we are all believers in a living God who opened the gates of Heaven and welcomed Dad to his eternal home when he drew his last breath. We are no so vain as to believe that Dad would trade that to be back here with us. We find comfort in knowing that he has received a full healing now and cancer can never again harm him.
May God bless you and your family deeply as you learn to live life under this new circumstance. Never forget the words of our Lord: "Blessed are those who mourn; for they shall be comforted"....Be blessed!!!
Brenda, daughter of Leo T., dx 01/07, Gliosarcoma, 10/2/38 - 01/31/08 - Forever with the Lord