Hello everyone! I have not been on since my Mom passed in April '08. It has been a very difficult journey through grieving from my huge loss. Just this passed Wednesday my Godfather passed away after a long battle. Both were very young. Both were a big part of my life. As all of you know cancer sucks! I am very sad, mad, tired,lonely,sleepless-but I am still hopeful. Hopeful in the way that one day we will find a cure for this thing called the big "C". This passed Saturday I went to a Relay for life. Honoring those that have survived cancer and remembering those that have lost their battle. It was inspiring and upseting. They had candles lit of the people who have been through all this. I personally had 7 candles lit for people in my family alone. I believe I found my calling and that is to help in the fight for a cure. But through my grieving I work with the Serenity prayer, I would like to share with you my thoughts:
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change...
* I can not change the fact that my Mom and Uncle Mark are no longer physically here with us..
The courage to change the things that I can...
* Perhaps change my thinking that although they are not here physically, they are still with me- more than ever now, I believe they are not sad that they are gone, but they are sad that we do not know of the peace and beauty that they see after one has left this life, a beauty that all that is there is so fond of--but my Momma is here, she is in my thoughts, in my prayers, in my heart and in my soul. That will never change - Cancer can not take that from me.
And the wisdom to know the difference..
On set of death, comes a new life--when we leave this earth plane, we are able to reunite w/ all those that have left before us, we reach the gates of Heaven and before our eyes we see the peace, love and beauty God has promised us. Although we are sad when they are gone- the true saddness is that we don't know of its beauty of the life and the world to come. I love you MOM & Uncle Mark!!