Lucy, my Beagle

Lucy is in Heaven today. It was so difficult. I was not brave........I could not watch her go...........I hugged her  up until the time they actually put her down. I just couldn't do it.........You see, I haven't been the same since my daughter died, of course I shouldn't be expected to. But, I wanted a closed casket and my ex-husband and my other children wanted it open. So, I had to see her in it and it has haunted me ever since, to the point I have to take sleeping pills every night. I wanted to remember Julie as being alive, not gone and lifeless. And I made that decision for my dog. Did I make the right decision. I don't know.......... So, those who think I'm strong, I'm not. I feel like I let Lucy down and I am so depressed about it. I did ask both Julie and Lucy to give me a sign when they met up...........guess what??? A sun shower and a DOUBLE rainbow this evening...............I think that's an awesome sign from both my girls...Double rainbow from Rainbow bridge.........Thankyou to everyone who wrote to me, I so appreciated the encouragement and love felt by all. I wish you all the best with your beloved pets and I'll be watching the boards for updates. Take care and God Bless.

Sometimes we don't have to be the strongest, just strong enough. You were strong enough for Lucy and she knew that you were there with her. God Bless.

You loved her unconditionally and she knew that. My Forrest was also waiting for Lucy at The Bridge. May God truely bless you and comfort you. Karen

OHHHH.....i read your story and started to cry immediately.  I used to complain about friends of mine who had animals always talking about them every morning when they came into work until I got a dog of my own.  She was a Yorkie named Madison.  When she passed away I never would have thought I would have felt the pain I had when she died.  Don't worry Lucy is in a good place now and she is with your daugther so they are now a family together and not missing each other.

GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!

 

On 8/2/2008 ethellu wrote:

Lucy is in Heaven today. It was so difficult. I was not brave........I could not watch her go...........I hugged her  up until the time they actually put her down. I just couldn't do it.........You see, I haven't been the same since my daughter died, of course I shouldn't be expected to. But, I wanted a closed casket and my ex-husband and my other children wanted it open. So, I had to see her in it and it has haunted me ever since, to the point I have to take sleeping pills every night. I wanted to remember Julie as being alive, not gone and lifeless. And I made that decision for my dog. Did I make the right decision. I don't know.......... So, those who think I'm strong, I'm not. I feel like I let Lucy down and I am so depressed about it. I did ask both Julie and Lucy to give me a sign when they met up...........guess what??? A sun shower and a DOUBLE rainbow this evening...............I think that's an awesome sign from both my girls...Double rainbow from Rainbow bridge.........Thankyou to everyone who wrote to me, I so appreciated the encouragement and love felt by all. I wish you all the best with your beloved pets and I'll be watching the boards for updates. Take care and God Bless.

What a beautiful vision - your daughter and Lucy running through fields of wild flowers and then crossing a rainbow bridge.  God not only gave you a beautiful sign that there were together but He also gave you memories to remember and love them by.

Diana

I am sorry for the loss of your Julie and Lucy.  Losing a child is life's greatest sorrow.  And to lose a pet is heartbreaking.  They love us unconditionally.  I remember when we had to put our cat Mittens down, my husband cried like a baby.  That was his cat and they were both so cool.  Little did I know that two years later, I would lose that wonderful compassionate husband also.  Life is hard.  I can only get by knowing they are waiting for us...just around a corner.

God Bless You,

Diane, Mike's wife

I'm so sorry to hear about Lucy & everything else you've endured.  I had to go thru the same thing with my dog JJ just a few days before you did with Lucy.  I read that you felt badly about not being able to go in for that one last moment, & wanted to let you know that when it was time to go into the exam room with me & JJ, my husband who came with me for support just couldn't go in there with me.  He's a big strong guy who has lost pets before, but he couldn't walk thru that door with me when it was time to let JJ go.  So, some of us say goodbye at the door & some of us go in there & keep holding on until after it's over.  Either way, you have to do what feels right at the time.  I must say, the end comes very quickly after the injection is given, so please don't feel bad that you couldn't stay for that one last minute.  You were there when it counted. 

Joy

Hi there,

The last time I was on this board 6 months ago was when I lost my 16 year old beagle, Joey to bladder cancer. I decided to just peek at the message boards for some reason this morning and the first thing I read was your post. I am sooooo sorry for your loss!!! I could feel all of your pain and sadness through me as I was reading your post the night before you knew would have to lose her. I remember so vividly the night before I had to put Joey to rest. I stayed up with him all night and just pet him. There is never the right time to let someone you love go and you can never prepare yourself for that loss.

 The memories are so fresh in my head even after 6 months of how difficult that all was. As they say, only time will heal and I can see in your posts how much you loved Lucy. Please be comforted that as time goes on, your doubts and regrets will fade and it will become clearer each day that you did the right thing. My thoughts and prayers are with you . I know that Joey and Lucy have probably met at Rainbow Bridge by now and are at peace. Take care!!

 Nikki