Janice2215,
Through that priest you have seen the face of God. Isn't God wonderful, loving and personal. Church or no church, who am I to say but wouldn't it be wonderful if the rest of your human life and what ever there is after could be spent in the presence of such love and experienced in the midst of such peace.
That is where my hope is. That there is a God who will hold me, care for me and carry me if needed through this human experience and when it is over will be waiting for me, running toward me with arms open in love to welcome me to a new spirit life experience.
Janice it is worth the effort to find a church community or spiritual family that will let you see God in their eyes, feel God in their hugs, and hear God in their voices. You can know what it means to live without fear of sickness or death, to find joy even in the sickest days and hope in every sunrise.
Remember that trust you felt from that priest. Listen to your heart and trust that small, still voice that even now may be letting you know how often it is when we are feeling the weakest our power is greatest.
God bless you journey,
Godseyes