I have been ill for many years...I have had...
endometriosis(16) told it was gone at (19). I assumed I was mis-diagnosed at 16. (3 laporocopys in total)
My gull bladder removed at 21. ( Could not find stones or blockage...but was severly ENLARGED.)
After 3 children delivered by c-section, 10 years I battled menstration problems treated with, hormones (depo-prevera..did nothing but cause a long span bout of depression), failed ablasions.. until severe anemia finally forced a hysterectomy at 36. Pathology showed..uterine cells grew INTO the uterine muscle. NO mention of cancer.
At 38 years old...I developed periodontial disease severe enough to have all of my upper teeth removed resulting in a 15G denture.
Then there is my bladder....my what seems like life long battles of pain, infections, self medicating and blood in my urine.
I have been screaming at the dr's office for years that something is wrong. Last July when I could no longer handle the flank pain, lower back pain, abdominal pain and blood in my urine, ..that caused a melt down in the Dr's office. The F bomb was dropped more than I am certain anyone was comfortable with. Finally instead of a prescription for antibiotics, I got a requisition for CT Scan.
One month after my 39 bday and have been told I have 80% chance that the 2cm tumor on my kidney is RCC or TCC, ... with the information he has so far, he told me to prepare to have the kidney removed. The MRI will tell for sure, along with the bone scan, lung exray and cyscopocy(bladder test).
My family and friends tell me to stay positive..."stop internet researching, let the DR tells me what is what". I want to desperatly...but given our health care system of the hurry up and wait...one symptom at a time diagnosis. And I struggle with the feeling of knowing....how many of you out there where NOT surpised when the dr told you it was cancer? I find it ironic now...at that same melt down, I told the Dr's and staff, that "whenever they get around to figuring out what the f#$#%@ the problem is.. they just remove the f@$%@# part from from my body. Im not going to wait for them to do the same with my kidneys". Bringing me to today..1 week since the Dr. told me this news..I have a tumor. Oddly enough, I am not angry, I am relieved to know there is SOMETHING wrong. Cancer or not..it is inside me, and it shouldnt be. What keeps me up at night is wonder?? .... given my age and the multiple surgeries I have had for unexplainable issues...am I crazy to think this could be a re-ocurring undiagnosed cancer??? I so want put on the I AM FINE rose coloured glasses on and then find out in 2 years from now, I should have been doing treatment differently. After all.. has it not been those same glasses that brought me to this damn tumor. Smoking, fast food, dehydration(I hate water..maybe 3 glasses a week..in the past. Now I have at least that a day.), toxic work enviroments, my overachieving stressful lifestyle... Thx for your time in reading my story. My family and friends refuse to talk about it for fear of a jynx the tests, it is great to vent.