Hi Dalimama,Sorry to hear about everything your going through maybe what I tell you might comfort you or help you in some way ,well either way just know you are now in my PRAYERS and I now believe you are healed and everything is gonna get better you just need to have FAITH as I do ,Well Dalimama I've been through everything you've been through and some,I don't know if you have had any bowel leakage but that is something very uncomfortable that I'm going through right now my Doctor tells me that I need A colostomy bag and this has been since 11/07 and I still don't know what to do part of me is scared and the other part is that I probably just don't want to deal with it at all ,I don't know what to expect if it's painful if it's gonna smell when I go places,I'm just confused because when I leak to much I get a lot of burning and it is real painful and i'm getting tired but I'm a strong believer in the LORD and I know he's Healed me in all ways,but the Lord also tells us to use Wisdom and I think it's that time to get the colostomy bag ,but my Doctor tells me it will be permanent and I just don't believe that because I've heard alot about it being reversed so I think I'm gonna speak to a Surgen and just go from their,so if you have any questions please don't hesitate to ask anything