Yes, living in an estrogen depleted state (as happens with the anti-estrogen drugs, or menopause, or the type of natural treatment I've been using) certainly can color our emotions and responses to life situations!! Many women who go thru menopause will then either deliberately or incidentally find foods, and/or supplements to make them feel better, and life evens out for them and they learn to live with the changed hormonal state. Unfortunately for those of maintaining a chemically induced menopause for treatment of/stopping recurrence of breast cancer, we can't resort to those things which make us feel better, either because the drugs prevent it, or we choose to avoid them because of the phytoestrogens they contain.
Having worked as an RN for many years and taking care of a wide variety of oncology patients both in hospitals and through home health, I was well aware of the seriousness of breast cancer when I was diagnosed in 2002. I approached both my surgeon and oncologist very matter of factly - I wanted to know everything - no sugar coating for me. I was surprised, and a little skeptical, when they both told me that the time was soon coming when cancer would be considered a chronic illness rather than a terminal disease, and would be treated with long-term medications just as diabetes and chronic pulmonary disease were already being treated. I had a little bit of a hard time accepting their idea of "living with cancer" - I didn't want to live with cancer - I wanted to be cancer free.
With time and perspective, my way of thinking has changed. I guess that started when my first surgery confirmed it was stage II cancer, and I then had to have another surgery to take out more lymph nodes due to the presence of cells in the margins. When a little over five years after my last radiation treatment I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer in my lungs, I realized that my attitude had continued to change tremendously. While I still wanted to be cancer-free, realistically I knew that might never happen, yet if it could be put in remission, I might have many more happy, healthy years to spend with my partner, and that became my focus. THe idea of "living" with cancer, and treating it like a chronic disease was no longer an idea I rejected. I still decided I would do my very best to try and eradicate it totally, but would be happy to hear scan results of stability and no new growth. (Which is indeed what I heard this past Thanksgiving - WHEW!!!)
I have learned over the past year and a half, that every day that I live with cancer - whether it is active, or in remission - is one more day that I am a survivor, that I have the opportunity to enjoy what I have worked hard to create, regardless of what my limitations may be. Whether I accept each day as a gift and make the most of it, or let circumstances drag me down, is totally up to me. And I choose to survive. I choose to LIVE, even if it means living with cancer. And regardless of whether I'm around another 5 years, or another 45 years, I hope that every day of it will be about living, rather than about dying.
Sincerely,
Tre