I totally understand how you are feeling. I haven't received a "stage" yet, but I am anticipating it to be zero. They did catch it very early through a annual exam and a abnormal pap. I feel extremely fortunate because of this. I read the cancer websites and they say that vaginal cancer is curable, but until now I have never heard the word curable in conjunction with the work cancer. I had surgery on Monday and they removed the mass which was the size of a dime. They also did a cone biopsy of the cervix to make sure it hasn't spread to the cervix. We believe it is contained to this one mass they removed. I had an MRI and chest x-ray and both those were clean. I feel blessed I have zero symptoms and even after the surgery I have had zero pain.
I'm a very upbeat person and I feel I will make it through this. However, I have days that I just want everyone to quit telling me how lucky I am and that everything will be treated easily. Unless you have gone through Radiation and chemo, how can you say it will be easy. I'm tired of everyone guessing what my treatment will be. No one knows including me, and we are in this wait process until next week to find out the exact treatment regimen and how long that treatment will take.
I find the hardest part about having cancer is the normalcy of life that it takes away. I'm a big time planner and I can't plan what is going to happen in two days because I don't know how the treatment will effect me physically, and for how long the treatment will be. We have post poned two vacations that were planned, but for how long? It makes me want to scream!
I see your posting was a couple months back. I hope by now you are on the mend and your treatment has subsided. Hang in there!
Wanda