I am so sorry you were violated this badly. If you did not want LEEP, did the doctor even discuss the other options? It may be your doctor should have done cold knife cone biopsy. Did the doctor even show you the lab report and give you a thorough explanation of your condition? It makes me angry when I see how many doctors there are who are just not ethical enough and caring enough to educate their patients enough to make an informed decision. We hire them to save our lives, and part of doing that is to fully educate us, first. I'm glad you are using that doctor, anymore.
I, too, was violated by a badly botched LEEP, and of course, doctors want to protect each other in the "fraternity." So, they try to pretend the end results are the cause of something else, and it's usually your body that is supposed to be at fault. I had the ex-doctor's nurse tell me I was having a herpes outbreak, which proved a lie. And a third doctor told me it was because of my depleted estrogen level, which proved a lie. At the time my ordeal began, I didn't even know the LEEP was botched. I just put my inability to heal from the LEEP to it being the wrong procedure for me. I have metal allergies, and nobody told me LEEP involved a piece of hot metal that burns out part of the cervix. That was definitely part of it, but of course, insurance companies like it so much because it's cheap and doctors like the quick money they make from LEEP, so nobody bothered to fully explain what it was to me. But even when I ended up in ER because the pain was so terrible, I never heard from my doctor. The nurse called three days later, and rudely told me nothing was wrong with me. I ended up in ER a second time and still never heard from the doctor.
It wasn't until I found an out-of-network doctor to diagnose the cause of my pain that I learned the LEEP had been botched. After getting the OR notes, I learned how bad it was. The loop bent, and rather than replace the loop the way he was required, the doctor continued hacking out my cervix in pieces. I don't know how he did this, but the right vaginal side was diagnosed as pulled and irritated, and my pudental nerve is inflamed. However, he was initially nervous he might be called as a witness in a lawsuit against the ex-doctor, so he didn't want to admit how bad the surgery went. I have never wanted to sue the ex-doctor. I just want to get well!
Earlier in the year, I went to an in-network doctor because I was hoping to get a referral to an in-network physical therapist to help me with the pain. I was also hoping she would work in conjunction with my out-of-network doctor to help me get well because he is two hours away. Unfortunately, she either knew the ex-doctor or his clinic director, or she saw he was in her network and wanted to protect her colleague. But she clearly had a conversation with somebody before I arrived. When she walked into the room, without introducing herself and before she had closed the door, she began screaming at me. She felt my case had been properly managed! This turned into quite a shouting match between us, and I told the front desk I refused to ever be seen by her, again.
I recently called the hospital where the surgery was done so that they could pressure the ex-doctor to tell me what happened, as he could give me the information I need to get well. He still won't talk. But I learned from the billing department I had received stitches. I still have no idea what body part got stitched, as I was under general anesthesia when the LEEP was done.
I am telling you this because I understand how violating and upsetting it is to have trusted a doctor, only to have been brutalized. It is sad that the only doctor who wants to help me get well is an out-of-network doctor. But this ordeal has caused me to not trust doctors, anymore. I don't know who is the butcher and who is protecting the butcher. So far, everything the out-of-network doctor has said has proven true. But my inability to trust doctors has been so destroyed, I have to research everything he tells me before I can believe him.
Unfortunately, the "fraternity" is more than likely not going to tell you the truth. So, you must be your own best advocate and get a complete copy of all the records in your file. This includes the notes from the surgery. More than likely, you will be charged. But it will be money well spent. You will also have to report the doctor to the medical board. The state I'm in has a website and I spoke to one of the regulators. He helped walk me through the forms.
If there has been damage that requires corrective surgery, though, you may have to also get a lawyer. But more than anything, please fight for yourself until you get the truth. Please feel free to also send me a private message if you want to. My LEEP happened in November 2007. I still haven't healed.