My Mother Just Passed.

this is actually, very hard to post..
My mother passed last night, my world has changed.
My mother, was diagnosed with cholangiocarcinoma in august... the doctors told me there was no way to stop the cancer. they placed stents in, to drain out bile. eventually it stopped draining.
as months went by, her conditions were getting worse.. alot of weight loss, pain, her legs had swollen to twice they're size, not even being able to get out of bed... all i wanted was for her to be comfortable...
yesterday, at 5pm, i walked in the door, to find my mom on the floor of my living room. my entire world stumbled down.... She was my best friend, my mom, my parent, my everything. For all my life she has BEEN my family, ive talked to and only known about 5 of my family members, everyone is devistated.
My fianci and her family is being completely supportive, telling me anything i need just ask... but its not the same... it isnt my family...
im really sorry if this is bumming everyone out... remember, my mom chose not to get any treatment, that doesnt mean there isnt hope for every single one of you, and youre loved ones, so keep youre head up and remember, god works wonderfull miricles...

im just trying to learn how to deal with this. i lost my father when i was 8 years old to skin cancer, losing my mom, it seems like my entire life is over...
i do have a final question.... i dont know what happened to her in in the living room. as bad as that sounds, i feel like i NEED TO KNOW what exactly caused this to happen.... they are telling me it was more likely a blood clot, but i dont know if i believe this....

thank you for reading my post, and remember, god helps everything. keep saying youre prayers and keep youre faith with god, with him, anything is possible...

-Kyle

Kyle1984

Hi, I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I lost my brother in May with the same horrible disease. At the end he had lost alot of weight,feet became swollen, and very agitated. Just watching him waste away was the most difficult thing for my family and I to see. He also fell because the doctors said that when the poison chemicals are released that it makes them very confused and agitated. We miss him so much and still want to know how he got this disease. No one seems to know since it is so rare. He was only 44 yrs. old. I know it is difficult for you and your family right now but you are in my thoughts and prayers.