On 5/12/2009 Maisha wrote:
hi. i found this looking for some support. feeling alone, probably like the rest of you. i was diagnosed with vin 3 in september and had multiple small areas removed at the end of september with laser and surgical excision. i had a follow up in february, the were watching one "little" spot. i just had a pap with my regular gyne, and she did a biopsy of a small area that came back as vin 3. i'll see her on monday for a vulvoscopy, and she'll e-mail my oncologist in the meantime. don't know what's next, but i feel like i'm being chased by cancer. i've had physical difficulty with having sex my whole life, and now i'm convinced i was never supposed to have it. stopping now wouldn't make a difference i guess. anyway, i just needed to find somewhere to spill.
Hun I can so relate to this. Even prior to my finding out I had VIN 3 I had a total lack of sexual desire. In 2001 I had a total hysterectomy and lost all desire. Now through all of this I wonder if I will ever had the need to do it again. Emotionally it's a rollercoaster and I feel I'm letting my husband down. But at the same time it's difficult for a man to understand just what we go through. Have faith is about all I can say right now. Get through what your dealing with then seak out the help for the lack of desire. Thats wht I plan to do. It may help. Hang in there hun. I'm sure there are plenty of us dealing with it.... we totally understand.........