Thank you for your kind words. While I am sad that he is gone in a physical sense, he'll never leave my heart. He was a large part of my live, through miscarriages, matrimonial distress, divorce, move from Colorado, and my mother's death on 3/4/09. He is in Heaven with my mom and I felt that this week when a sense of calm came over me that he wasn't scared, nor lost. And then I found a shiny new penny in my checkbook -- something my mom always said was a sign from an angel if one showed up (like in a parking lot). So, it was then I felt he had found his way and was enjoying the pleasures of Heaven with my mom and dad and pets gone by. I still have his "sister" and will look for another companion for her. She's quite depressed.
Indeed, I do not understand why there are cure for so many diseases out there and not one for cancer. I believe it's the pharmaceutical companies not wanting to lose out on their incredible profit margins for all their drugs associated with treatment of cancer. Cancer is a big money maker for doctors, hospitals, treatment centers, pharmaceutical companies, etc. The ones who lose are the ones who have to live through the hell it puts our loved ones. I donate blood and have been tested for bone marrow matching for just that purpose. I hope to be able to help someone who needs it.
Have a wonderful weekend and again, thank you for your kind words and thoughts.
Mary