Hey Georgi!
I wish you all the best with your scan this week! please be sure to keep us informed!
as far the weight thing goes... i totally understand how you feel! my dr. says i after a year i will probably reach my maximum stomach capacity. i do my best to eat well and i often find myself overeating! and yet, i still can't seem to break 100lbs. i am a little more than 9 months post surgery right now. before surgery i was up to 111 (from the 100-105 i was during treatments). when i came out of the hospital i was down to 98..from there i went down to as low as 91lbs....i thought i looked terrible.....like you said...skin and bones! no butt, no boobs, nuthin!!! it has gotten better though...i have stopped losing and gained. i now, seem to be a steady 98lbs....there has been an occassion or 2 where i reached a 100lbs, but only to go back down the next day.....
aside from eating, the only other thing that helped was exercise...nothing too major....just walking. i found i had lost a lot of muscle after my surgery because i just couldn't be as active as i used to be. i just needed to get that back and i have! although i am not the weight i would like to be right now, i can't complain because i have made progress and i am looking a lot healthier than i did a couple of months ago!
so, hang in there...it is gonna take time, but you will get it back....just look on the bright side.....chances are you will never have to worry about being over weight! ; )
best of luck, be well and God bless!
-Stacey