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I wish I were there so I could scream, yell, kick,,,,,,,what ever else you want to do.  You have every right to feel whatever you want to feel.

And if I were there,,,,,I would give you a GREAT BIG HUG!!!!!!   Then I would tell you to fight like HELL!  Don't let this monster get you down.

I keep hearing, get a second opinion, which is what we intend to do if and when my husband's brain tumor grows back.  I ask the "why us" question every day, but never get  an answer. 

IT IS NOT FAIR!!!!  IT'S A offensive word removed !!!!!!! 

If you need to talk, I am a good listener. And remember, you are not alone.  I felt so alone until I found this website. 

Remember, there are miracles. DON'T GIVE UP.  That is the worst thing you can do.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, today, tomorrow and forever.

Penny

On 6/30/2009 melgrigg09 wrote:

I WENT TO SLOAN KETTERING YESTERDAY, THEY SAID THAT I HAVE THE RAREST FORM OF BAC. IT IS ALSO NON SURGICAL. ACCORDING TO THE NEW CAT SCAN THE CANCER IN THE RIGHT LOWER LOBE HAS GOTTEN WORSE SINCE MAY. I GO BACK  TOMORROW TO FIND OUT WHAT KIND OF TREATMENT I AM QUALIFIED FOR. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I DID SO DAMN WRONG TO GET THIS STUPID CANCER.

WHY ME? I AM SO ANGRY THAT I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND YELL AND KICK. I HATE MY PARENTS, THEY ARE BAD PEOPLE, WHY COULDN'T THEY GET THIS CRAP. I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT TRY AND HELP PEOPLE, SO WHY WAS I GIVEN THIS SHIT.

I DONT WANT TO DIE . MY KIDS NEED ME. THEY ARE STILL TO YOUNG TO BE ALONE. I WANT TO SEE THEM GROW UP. GET MARRIED AND HAVE KIDS WHY DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO BE SHORTENED? IT IS JUST NOT FAIR.

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME.

I wish I were there so I could scream, yell, kick,,,,,,,what ever else you want to do.  You have every right to feel whatever you want to feel.

And if I were there,,,,,I would give you a GREAT BIG HUG!!!!!!   Then I would tell you to fight like HELL!  Don't let this monster get you down.

I keep hearing, get a second opinion, which is what we intend to do if and when my husband's brain tumor grows back.  I ask the "why us" question every day, but never get  an answer. 

IT IS NOT FAIR!!!!  IT'S A offensive word removed !!!!!!! 

If you need to talk, I am a good listener. And remember, you are not alone.  I felt so alone until I found this website. 

Remember, there are miracles. DON'T GIVE UP.  That is the worst thing you can do.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, today, tomorrow and forever.

Penny

On 6/30/2009 melgrigg09 wrote:

I WENT TO SLOAN KETTERING YESTERDAY, THEY SAID THAT I HAVE THE RAREST FORM OF BAC. IT IS ALSO NON SURGICAL. ACCORDING TO THE NEW CAT SCAN THE CANCER IN THE RIGHT LOWER LOBE HAS GOTTEN WORSE SINCE MAY. I GO BACK  TOMORROW TO FIND OUT WHAT KIND OF TREATMENT I AM QUALIFIED FOR. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I DID SO DAMN WRONG TO GET THIS STUPID CANCER.

WHY ME? I AM SO ANGRY THAT I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND YELL AND KICK. I HATE MY PARENTS, THEY ARE BAD PEOPLE, WHY COULDN'T THEY GET THIS CRAP. I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT TRY AND HELP PEOPLE, SO WHY WAS I GIVEN THIS SHIT.

I DONT WANT TO DIE . MY KIDS NEED ME. THEY ARE STILL TO YOUNG TO BE ALONE. I WANT TO SEE THEM GROW UP. GET MARRIED AND HAVE KIDS WHY DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO BE SHORTENED? IT IS JUST NOT FAIR.

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME.

Remember we are hear for you and understand what you are going through.  The anger, pain and frustration are all part of the process.  Try to keep hope.  Remember tomorrow is not guaranteed to any of us and we should live today as if it is our last and not worry about tomorrow until it gets here.  Even though your cancer is rare there still is a chance you could be cured.

I pray that God gives you and your family the strength to get through this difficult time.  I pray that he heals you and gives you the live that you want.  Just remember to keep strong and live today to its fullest. 

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