the battle lost...now what

it has been a little over 4 mths now since we lost our precious sister....the missing is never ending.....after 51 yrs.  my mind is so confused, the emptiness is unbearable.  not a day goes past that i don't feel as though i am suffocating from this devastating loneliness i have from losing her.

i am not asking for sympathy...please don't say that you are sorry...i just need someone to hear my primal screams.

i know that life is suppose to go on...i have been here before...only this is eating me up inside.

Paddy -

I hear your screams and offer virtual hugs for your loss. I hope you are taking care of yourself and getting regular checks for yourself so if you develop bc, it can be caught early. Be sure to stay in touch with friends and encourage them to get checked also. I think it is healthy to mourn your sister's death although you should not allow yourself to become depressed but instead celebrate and embrace the good times you had together.

There are many ways to keep your memories alive and honor her life by getting together a team of friends and family to walk/run in her name in the relay for life or Susan G Komen race for a cure. The great thing about the relay for life is that while you are sitting and waiting for your turn, you can share great stories about times you had together plus listen to others tell their stories of how your sister impacted their lives.

I hope you can take comfort in knowing that you are not alone.

TAM 

Please accept my deep sympathy for the loss of your beloved sister. Please, Please start attending a support group for those who have lost others. They are all over. You need to heal yourself. You will be honoring your sister. Love, Blessings and Prayers, Bonnie

i got goose bumps reading your message. my heart and prayers go out to you trully.remember if she was so special to you then you were so special to her . she would understand if you slowly eased out of the scorching pain and get to a place where you can smile all be it with a tear running down your cheek just take some long walks and stay content that the sky is still blue and the grass is green  simplicity works for me  go in peace not in pieces lilchris