lost love of my life

well may 21 2009 at 5:45pm i lost the love of my life after a very heard fight of 7 months of hell and there never was a good day after we were told he had cancer i am very lost with out him aug was 20 wedding annaversary i spent the at were he loved to be fishing i just dont know were to go from here the house is going any one tell me how i can even think of going on why and why would i want to

 

On 9/4/2009 miss melissa wrote:

well may 21 2009 at 5:45pm i lost the love of my life after a very heard fight of 7 months of hell and there never was a good day after we were told he had cancer i am very lost with out him aug was 20 wedding annaversary i spent the at were he loved to be fishing i just dont know were to go from here the house is going any one tell me how i can even think of going on why and why would i want to

 

I am so sorry.  I don't have any magical words to tell you that will make this difficult time any easier or less painful for you.  I wish I did.  I have to believe that he would want you to be strong and to honor his life and fight with this horrible disease by living your life.  The love you had for each other must have been very special.  Many people never find that kind of love. 

Have you thought about some type of grief counseling?  There are a lot of groups which are free.  Try to stay as busy as possible.  Talk to your doctor and tell him how hard this is for you.  Maybe he can help.  Please don't give up, I am sure your husband would not have wanted that for you.

He fought to live and now you must do the same.

Stay strong and please hunt for some help with your grief.

Definitely talk to someone. Anyone. A therapist, a close friend. What you are experiencing is so hard and will continue to be, you need all the support and different viewpoints you can get. You have to somehow stick your head outside of that pain to see that the world keeps moving and, while that probably won't mean a thing to you for a long time, you have to know it. It will help you a great deal eventually. At this point, I think your main concern is emotional survival. Don't let this utterly crush you. You have to do anything and everything you can to protect and heal yourself. Do whatever you can to make you happy, even if for one second. Good luck, I hope you are doing better by now.