help i am stuggling 5 yrs later

hi i was diagnosed 5 yrs ago i am still stuggling stage 4 terminal they filled me with morphine then hello told me they cant  find cancer i still feel shit i am having trouble no saliva hearing both ears they r going 2 remove gromets told me have 2 live with fluid how do i do that my balance is of angry all the time if any one is on ordine if u arnt in pain dont take it it is very addictive i have spent the last 3months coming of it why i dont no i thought i fuctioned a lot better i all so have rumatoid artheritis every thing is a fight i am very tired any suggestions would help