Colorectal Cancer Surgery Monday-Help!

I have surgery Monday and today I am losing it.  I am so scared. I have colorectal cancer, was considered stage 4 before radiation which shrunk it considerably per surgeon, I had 6 weeks with Rad/Chemo.  I have been doing ok off and on with a few breakdowns but today ...... I am so lost and scared.  I don't want to hurt anymore. 

See Severe joint pain and neurophy.  Today my anxiety is sky high and I have some discomfort in my chest.  I just need to cry and vent. I know there are thousands upon thousands who have gone through this but when it is you (me) Well you knonw what I mean, even my hot flashes are more intense, or seems so. I think I might die.  Does everyone go thru this?

Please help!

Peggy

Hi, I'm sorry to hear you're having a tough day...you're justified in being scared of a surgery...most people are!  A couple of things...you may want to put this message on the colon cancer message board (I see it's under emotional support).  The reason it may be good to also have it on the colon cancer board is that you can describe the kind of surgery you're about to have and people who have actually had the surgery and know the kind of thing this will entail will be able to answer any questions you have.  It sounds like you have had great results from your radiation and chemo...way to go!  Keep posting on the colon cancer site and you will be amazed at the supportive advise you'll get!  My Dad has stage 4 colon cancer so I check it daily...it has helped SO much!  Ok, post your message there and make sure to include what exactly they're going to do in the surgery and you will get a lot of feedback.  Keep your chin up, say a prayer and take a deep breath!  You have proven already what a fighter you are so keep it up!