Everyone Is Different...

I didn't look on the net to inform myself of my cancer when I was diagnosed. I had just lost my brother last year, and my mom in 2000 to cancer. I was somehow in a shock! My biggest fear was telling my sister....My cancer was located in an abcess on my butt.I remember thinking it was just an abcess and I waited months, and months for it to burst. Making it more and more difficult to live with...I finally passed out on the street. Even refused to take the ride in the ambulance annoying my best friend who I scared to death. Lying on the streets out cold like a light......It ended up being very serious and I had to have chemo and radiation.(6wks radiation 2wks 24hr chemo) A very strong treatment that left me sometimes on the floor with exhaustion. I had to have a colostomy before...I lost something like 20 kilos...Regardless to the horror stories I heard..I didn't get sick, and was able to eat everything in sight! I'm an entertainer, and I was even able to travel in a car 5hrs and get out and sing after radiation! Of course I slept afterwards but I was able to do it....I don't know if It was my well, or desire. I just felt like I had to keep moving. I didn't want to sit still. And when the metal taste came in my mouth I ate "Ricola" or "hard candy" to take that taste out of my mouth......I even left the hospital once with my portable chemo pack to see my friend in the theater! Some days I had chemo and radiation at the same time...Presently I'm in the hospital having a reverse colostomy tomorrow...All my test came back and I'm "cancer free"!!I

I just wanted to share that with everyone. Reading the comments here put me almost in a depression. Because most of the people are telling the negative experiences. We're all different, and not everyone can look forward to the worst treatments and side effects! I want to extend myself and acknowledge that "everyone is different"! The mind is strong...if we just feed our thoughts with the horror of cancer thats  not good! So take your treatments and think positive. I'm reaching out to everyone out there....And I'm feeling good!! Atittude.....Keep your heads to the sky!! Allow your healing process to start........

Hi Eddie,

Thanks for the positive outlook and for being optimistic.  I know that it's rough and hard to stay positive when everyone is riding out such a harsh storm (cancer), however, I believe that focusing on God and keeping your head to the sky is the only way to survive!  It is depressing when a lot of people are focusing on ALL negative and not trying to stay positive, but it might be that they are just in a very dark place right now and don't know how to find the strength to do so.  Just try to share your wonderful outcome and your experience with others on this site and that will slowly but surely give someone hope and the will to keep faith in their situations where they couldn't see it before.  Thank you for the enlightening story and I praise God for your victory.  That's awesome that you are cancer-free.  Please continue to use your victory to encourage others so that they can find the strength to fight.  Thanks for sharing and God bless you.  Mallie

Kudo's to your spirit.  I am also a into the power of positive thinking and I believe that all things happen... good and bad for reason.  We have to find the message in them.  My husband went from stage IV colon cancer with mets to the liver with minimal hope and now had a resection, follow up chemo and although has lots of side affects... he is no longer stage iv colone cancer... and like you is now cancer free. I just told him that in the spring when he is better rested he should consider volunteering to help in some way fight this fight for others not so lucky.

Keep going... keep living... Cheers to your battle.