Husband has right thigh sarcoma.
I need some advice, i thought i was doing this somewhat right, and as i posted in my first message.. he is 43 me 35 and we have 3 teenagers 13,16,18 and a toddler shes 3. the three teenagers are from my first marriage, only the 3 yr old is ours. we have been together for 5 years.he is being treated at roswell park cancer institute, 1/2 hour away from us.. which i used to work at. he has gone through his 30 days m-f of radiation and is now waiting for his surgery date of oct.20th. i have no idea what i am in for when he goes for surgery... i drive him everywhere , the pain pills wont let him drive anymore, but he still has worked everyday through radiation and even still, up to the day before surgery, he is worried we will loose our home, since i am disabled and stay at home mom, so he is the only bread winner. everyday he works from 6am til 330pm i drive him to and from then we would head to roswell for radiaton 4pm and back home and he sweats like a pig and wont eat and he has lost 20 lbs since aug. if not more, he gets mad when i tell him to eat cause he is so nauseated. yet i seem to piss him off about telling him to eat. etc.. he snaps at me for the littlest things,or if i mention doing anything that he cant do, not that i do it on purpose, i am just trying to make sure he dont forget how to live through this. i am trying to help him but feel like i am not at all. i am so scared to live without him, how do i raise 4 daughters care for and pay for a home and his jeep plus my vue.. not to mention i am really mad at his sisters and mother, they havent done a damn thing to help him or us through this, they live one hour away. i am even asked them to make dinners i could freeze since its so hard to do meals, not a damn thing. people say accept help well i am begging for help and yet nobody does a damn thing for us, hell they dont even call and check on him. nothing. how do i deal with that, do i go off on them... he is sensitive now so i cant really yell at his mom and sister now can i. i miss our life. i miss taking our dog for a walk or daughter for a walk. i miss so much and i dont know how to keep doing things so we dont sit and look at a fat leg full of nasty cancer. any advice would sure help.
april