LEEP Biopsy -- Need Help

I am rather upset at the fact that my original posting was removed without any explanation. I thought that this website existed to provide solace to people going through a difficult time. I even received a helpful response from someone who is having the same procedure a couple of days before me, and because of the board removing my posting, I have no means or way to reconnect with her.

 In a mere attempt to receive any advice/support, I am reposting my original message below.

 

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Thank you for taking out the time to read my posting.

This whole entire year has been a horrible experience for me.

In March of 2009, I thought that I was anemic b/c I was feeling severely weak and tired. So I went to get my routine bloodwork done, and it turned out that I had mono. (Epstein Barr Virus). I was so alarmed by this that I immediately scheduled an annual with my OB-GYN. This followed with receiving an abnormal pap smear. I then got a colposcopy and was told that I have HPV. I then got a biopsy and was diagnosed with moderate-servere dysplasia. My MD at the time wanted me to get the cone biopsy, but I told her that I am not comfortable with this procedure and explained that I will hold off for half a year, to see if my cells reformat.

I am 25 years old. My father passed away when I was 17 from bone marrow/lympatic/lung cancer. It completely broke my heart to see someone I love so much wither away from this horrible disease. Now all of these sad memories are being reawakened by what I am going through.

So, in a nutshell...I was hoping that after 6 months of babying my immune system, that I would get normal results. I moved and found a new MD, and then in September got all my tests completed. Well, turns out that it advanced to full blown severe dysplasia.

I am scheduled to have my LEEP Biopsy next week on the 22nd. I am so scared, and I do not have much support. I already had my consultation in which we discussed the possible complications that can occur, and the long term effects as well. I am crying as I write this b/c I have no one and no where to turn to. The good thing is that my boss is being semi-understanding and granted me a week off from work for after the procedure.

 I am wondering if any of you can offer any advice or information that will calm me down. My stress is effecting my sleep habits. I am having major anxiety to the point of attacks.

 Any insight would make a world of a difference.

 

Thank you.

 

On 10/15/2009 BlissfulYoga wrote:

I am rather upset at the fact that my original posting was removed without any explanation. I thought that this website existed to provide solace to people going through a difficult time. I even received a helpful response from someone who is having the same procedure a couple of days before me, and because of the board removing my posting, I have no means or way to reconnect with her.

 In a mere attempt to receive any advice/support, I am reposting my original message below.

 

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Thank you for taking out the time to read my posting.

This whole entire year has been a horrible experience for me.

In March of 2009, I thought that I was anemic b/c I was feeling severely weak and tired. So I went to get my routine bloodwork done, and it turned out that I had mono. (Epstein Barr Virus). I was so alarmed by this that I immediately scheduled an annual with my OB-GYN. This followed with receiving an abnormal pap smear. I then got a colposcopy and was told that I have HPV. I then got a biopsy and was diagnosed with moderate-servere dysplasia. My MD at the time wanted me to get the cone biopsy, but I told her that I am not comfortable with this procedure and explained that I will hold off for half a year, to see if my cells reformat.

I am 25 years old. My father passed away when I was 17 from bone marrow/lympatic/lung cancer. It completely broke my heart to see someone I love so much wither away from this horrible disease. Now all of these sad memories are being reawakened by what I am going through.

So, in a nutshell...I was hoping that after 6 months of babying my immune system, that I would get normal results. I moved and found a new MD, and then in September got all my tests completed. Well, turns out that it advanced to full blown severe dysplasia.

I am scheduled to have my LEEP Biopsy next week on the 22nd. I am so scared, and I do not have much support. I already had my consultation in which we discussed the possible complications that can occur, and the long term effects as well. I am crying as I write this b/c I have no one and no where to turn to. The good thing is that my boss is being semi-understanding and granted me a week off from work for after the procedure.

 I am wondering if any of you can offer any advice or information that will calm me down. My stress is effecting my sleep habits. I am having major anxiety to the point of attacks.

 Any insight would make a world of a difference.

 

Thank you.

Hi Blissful Yoga!  I'm so sorry that your post got removed...don't know why that would have happended.  Anyway, I think I'm the one you were referring to reconnecting with.  My LEEP is scheduled for the 19th.  I hope you are feeling a little better about things.  I still haven't received a call back from my doc's office with regards to my concerns/questions.  I'm getting more and more anxious about the procedure but trying not to worry too much.  I will post afterwards to let you know how it went and try to keep you updated on the days after.  I hope you do the same.  It's very interesting to see how different everyone experiences this procedure.  I'm praying for myself and you and anyone else going through this.  Try to keep a positive attitude (I know it's hard given the circumstances) about your outlook and pray and believe that things will be okay...trust in God.  That's about all anyone can do, I think.  It makes me feel better, a little bit, to just give it up to God and let him handle it.  Not that it is out of my mnd any less but, at least I know HE will take care of me and do what is suppose to happen.  Hope you get some more responses with good advice and support.  Let me know if I can help you with anything.

Hi there. Thank you so much for responding to my posting again. I have no idea why it was originally removed, but I am just glad that we can reconnect again. I want to let you know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers on the 19th. I wish you the best of luck. I hope that your MD touched base with you in regard to your questions. I had my consultation on October 2nd, and asked all of my questions then. I inquired about receiving pain medication for this, and she said that it will not be necessary, so I guess its a no go for me. I am hoping that it will be a speedy recovery for both of us. I am just trying to be as calm and stress-free about this, even though it is super challenging. I try to do lots of yoga and meditation and breathing techniques. I have learned and realized that getting more stressed out about this will cause a ripple effect and just do more damage to my immune system. I am still very nervous though, but I realize what a blessing it is that they caught this in time and that I am taking charge and moving forward with this procedure. I thank you again so much for your kind words and advice. It has helped more than you can imagine. I hope that you have a wonderful upcoming weekend, and hang in there. Our guardian angels are watching over us. ~*

 

On 10/16/2009 BlissfulYoga wrote:

Hi there. Thank you so much for responding to my posting again. I have no idea why it was originally removed, but I am just glad that we can reconnect again. I want to let you know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers on the 19th. I wish you the best of luck. I hope that your MD touched base with you in regard to your questions. I had my consultation on October 2nd, and asked all of my questions then. I inquired about receiving pain medication for this, and she said that it will not be necessary, so I guess its a no go for me. I am hoping that it will be a speedy recovery for both of us. I am just trying to be as calm and stress-free about this, even though it is super challenging. I try to do lots of yoga and meditation and breathing techniques. I have learned and realized that getting more stressed out about this will cause a ripple effect and just do more damage to my immune system. I am still very nervous though, but I realize what a blessing it is that they caught this in time and that I am taking charge and moving forward with this procedure. I thank you again so much for your kind words and advice. It has helped more than you can imagine. I hope that you have a wonderful upcoming weekend, and hang in there. Our guardian angels are watching over us. ~*

Wow!  I can't believe they told medication wasn't necessary!  If you are really scared about it and feel the need, you could always ask to have it done in the OR with a general anesthesia.  That is NOT uncommon.  Or, at least ask if they will give you something for the anxiety to take prior to the procedure.  I'm so sick of dr's not actually treating their patients.  I don't believe there is ANY reason to let someone go through this without something for pain and/or anxiety.  If there are dr's out there doing this procedure under general anesthesia then I woud say that there is a reason and anyone made to do it in the office should be offerred something.  It's not like you'd get addicted from one or two pills or that you are drug seeking!  What a joke!  I would let them know that too.  I feel bad for you...I hope you can get it worked out.  Good luck and I will post after my procedure on monday to let you know how it went.  God Bless!!

You are in my thoughts.

Wishing you much luck tomorrow.

 Blessings~*

I wish both of you girls luck!  if you need someone to talk to about leep just send me a message i usually check my mail once a day

god bless erin

I am still very nervous.

My procedure is on the 22nd.

I have been dreading this procedure for quite some time, and I can't help but become more nervous as it gets closer and closer.

 I am just thankful that I am having this taken care of. The most important part is following up and taking the necessary protocol and steps.

I am taking a week off from work to rest, which I am looking forward to since I haven't been sleeping well in quite some time.

My biggest scare is being told that they found cancer. Right now I have severe dysplasia. I am praying and hoping that everything is going to be alright. Just wish this was over already.

 

On 10/15/2009 BlissfulYoga wrote:

I am rather upset at the fact that my original posting was removed without any explanation. I thought that this website existed to provide solace to people going through a difficult time. I even received a helpful response from someone who is having the same procedure a couple of days before me, and because of the board removing my posting, I have no means or way to reconnect with her.

 In a mere attempt to receive any advice/support, I am reposting my original message below.

 

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 

Thank you for taking out the time to read my posting.

This whole entire year has been a horrible experience for me.

In March of 2009, I thought that I was anemic b/c I was feeling severely weak and tired. So I went to get my routine bloodwork done, and it turned out that I had mono. (Epstein Barr Virus). I was so alarmed by this that I immediately scheduled an annual with my OB-GYN. This followed with receiving an abnormal pap smear. I then got a colposcopy and was told that I have HPV. I then got a biopsy and was diagnosed with moderate-servere dysplasia. My MD at the time wanted me to get the cone biopsy, but I told her that I am not comfortable with this procedure and explained that I will hold off for half a year, to see if my cells reformat.

I am 25 years old. My father passed away when I was 17 from bone marrow/lympatic/lung cancer. It completely broke my heart to see someone I love so much wither away from this horrible disease. Now all of these sad memories are being reawakened by what I am going through.

So, in a nutshell...I was hoping that after 6 months of babying my immune system, that I would get normal results. I moved and found a new MD, and then in September got all my tests completed. Well, turns out that it advanced to full blown severe dysplasia.

I am scheduled to have my LEEP Biopsy next week on the 22nd. I am so scared, and I do not have much support. I already had my consultation in which we discussed the possible complications that can occur, and the long term effects as well. I am crying as I write this b/c I have no one and no where to turn to. The good thing is that my boss is being semi-understanding and granted me a week off from work for after the procedure.

 I am wondering if any of you can offer any advice or information that will calm me down. My stress is effecting my sleep habits. I am having major anxiety to the point of attacks.

 Any insight would make a world of a difference.

 

Thank you.

 

Well, Im sorry to hear about that from you. I know how it feels when you are in a situaation like this. I just had a pap smear done on sep. 30th and it came back abnormal this is the 2nd pap abnormal that i have had. I am very nervous anxious and scared. I havent tell anyone not even my mom or my boyfriend b/c I am so emberrased and scared. I am so lonley too. I dont know what to do. Another think that have me all worried is that I probably wont have the money to pay all my appoinments and visits to the doctors. I am very stressed too about this situation. I have a doctors appmt today and I think she is going to give me all the paper work and some advice about a Leep that I need to get done. I dont know if I have HPV or if I have dysplasia or cervical cancer. I have a lot of questions that I need to ask her. I am 22 yrs old no kids and I have a boyfriend that doesnt know about this. We havent had any intercourse in the last month and I dont want to because I am scared to get wrost...

 

Hi armendariz87~*

Thank you for responding to my posting and for opening up to me about your situation. Listen, first thing you need to do is breathe. I know that I should be taking my own advice, because I am incredibly nervous and scared about the surgery tomorrow, but getting all worked up about it isn't going to ease the situation. Secondly, don't jump the gun here. I have friends that have had numerous abnormal papsmears, which was then followed by a colposcopy and they were told that everything is fine, and that no biopsy or leep/cone biopsy is necessary. It is incrdibly rare for a MD to suggest a leep/cone biopsy without doing a colposcopy. So, just hang in there. One step at a time. I think that it is making it more difficult by not opening up to your mother and boyfriend. They love you and are here to support you. So don't be embarassed. At first I felt the same way, but I was so concerned about this advancing to cancer since my father passed from cancer. Embarassment wasn't even a concern for me. It was more like...making sure that I am going to be okay was my biggest concern. So, schedule another follow up with your MD. If you don't agree with the protocol he/she is doing, then you can always find a new doctor. (Thats what I did). If you ever have any questions or need advice, you can always turn to this website. It has been very comforting to come here and talk with others who are going through the same situations.

No words can express how deeply scared I am about tomorrow's procedure but it is out of my hands at this point. I am just praying that I will be alright and that this is going to be okay for me.

 

On 10/21/2009 BlissfulYoga wrote:

 

Hi armendariz87~*

Thank you for responding to my posting and for opening up to me about your situation. Listen, first thing you need to do is breathe. I know that I should be taking my own advice, because I am incredibly nervous and scared about the surgery tomorrow, but getting all worked up about it isn't going to ease the situation. Secondly, don't jump the gun here. I have friends that have had numerous abnormal papsmears, which was then followed by a colposcopy and they were told that everything is fine, and that no biopsy or leep/cone biopsy is necessary. It is incrdibly rare for a MD to suggest a leep/cone biopsy without doing a colposcopy. So, just hang in there. One step at a time. I think that it is making it more difficult by not opening up to your mother and boyfriend. They love you and are here to support you. So don't be embarassed. At first I felt the same way, but I was so concerned about this advancing to cancer since my father passed from cancer. Embarassment wasn't even a concern for me. It was more like...making sure that I am going to be okay was my biggest concern. So, schedule another follow up with your MD. If you don't agree with the protocol he/she is doing, then you can always find a new doctor. (Thats what I did). If you ever have any questions or need advice, you can always turn to this website. It has been very comforting to come here and talk with others who are going through the same situations.

No words can express how deeply scared I am about tomorrow's procedure but it is out of my hands at this point. I am just praying that I will be alright and that this is going to be okay for me.

hi blissfulyoga!

Thank you for taking some time to read my post. I am very nervous and I really need someone to talk about this. Well, yesterday I went to see my MD and she told me that my pap came back abnormal and that I have a ASCUS. When she told me that I know is not good to have ASCUS but I felt so good that it wasnt anything wrost. She told me that I am going to have a colpo done ASAP. I am getting all my paperwork done to get it faster. I am glad that I dont have to get the leep done right now. But I still dont want to tell my mom and my boyfriend. I know that's not good but I dont want them to worry about it. Well, I am glad I found you and I really want to thank you for your attention. I wish you good luck tomorrow on your procedure and I hope you get well. Praying is one of the things that have been helping me. When I pray I feel like God have all the things in control.

 I hope you and all of you girls that are going thru this situation get better I know how you guys feel. If anyone needs somebody to talk about anything please feel free to tell me. I dont have anybody I am going truogh all this by myself and it feels so good when somebody replies and tell you that everything is going to be allright. Lets keep in touch girls

Be blessed!