Mary,
No offense taken at all. This diagnosis sucks most especially for the patient who is dealing with their own mortality as well as physical, emotional and cognitive deficits to name a few. We as caregivers have our own set of issues that we're dealing with but ultimately we're all in this together.
So for you to be cranky -- is to be expected and understood and is also totally warranted -- although I have to say that you don't seem cranky to me.
Prayers to you -- I hope the deficits that you are encountering are only surgery related.
Jennifer