Dear marie , Its sounds like you are in good hands,both in this world and in the spiritual. I too am a believer and know God makes all things work for good for those who love Him. I dont know why my father went thru that, but I trust the Lord, He is a faithful God. Althought my dad is not here, I will be reunited with him when God calls me home. The cancer did not win, my dad did. The cancer is dead, and my fathers body has been restored. If I can be of any help to you, if you would like me to pray please dont be afraid to ask,that is what I am on doing here. GOD be with you and grant you peace. Mary Ellen