Back in November 2004, my first grandson was diagnosed with
a DPG. He was 4 years old at that time and was able to
celebrate his 5th birthday last March. He was given radiation
and took Temodar until August. Unfortunately, the tumor after
showing signs of shrinking, began to grow again. Since
August, he has had a shunt put in place that has seem to have
helped with the symptoms. He was also given Gleevec, but it
gave him side effects and based on his physical abilities seems
that it did not affected the growth of the tumor. After careful
consideration with the child's doctors and realizing that the
tumor was still growing, they stopped the chemotherapy.
Today, thanks to God's mercy he still with us. He can no
longer walk on his own, the weakness on the left side of his
body has increased, his speech is slurred and I am watching
how the spark of life is slowly but surely dimming. His little
body, swollen by the steroids, is slowly giving way to an end. I
do not have an idea of how much time I will have with him.
Surely we have had wonderful moments with him. He stills
plays puppets with his stuff animals and we savor the smiles
that we see. He was able to attend school for most of the time
this Fall, we have watched him dressed up like Woody,
Superman, Buzz Light, Batman and every character under the
sun. His active imagination have given us joy and memorable
moments that will be with us forever.
This illness will take you though a journey of good and bad
times. Make sure that you make the best of it. Do not dwell
on what you could have done or not. DPG just is. It is not
anything that you have done wrong. It affects the rich as well
as the poor, it does not discriminate.
Make sure that as individuals and as a couple, you begin
looking for a support system. A person whom you can trust
with your deepest fears, strengths and weaknesses. Every
aspect of your life will be directly affected by this illness. Make
sure that you maintain a healthy and nurturing relation with
your spouse. Personally, I am a believer in Christ, in Him lies
my trust, He has been my pillar of strength. My husband has
been my best friend during this time, I appreciate his
understanding and willingness to be not only by my side but
also by our daughter's side. This is a time for family, do not
burden yourselves with past hurts that only bring discord.
Forgiveness is hard, however, it is liberating. Forgiveness does
not mean forgetting, but means that you can look back to the
event that hurt your feelings and still look forward to the future
that is ahead. Unforgivenes paralyzes you and does not allows
you to move forward in peace or grow into whom God intended
for you to be. Forgiveness is not a feeling, but a conscious act
of your will. (Weather you are a believer or not)
I guess that I have not answer your concerns about DPG.
Looking back to the last 12 months, what I can share is my
heart with you. I hope and pray that you walk strong through
all what lies ahead and at the end, regardless of the outcome,
you and your loved ones are stronger, united, wiser and better
persons.
My prayers are with you, every family and every child with this
diagnosis.
May the Lord Bless you always.