i too have been told i have VAIN. i understand how scary it is. im in the UK. where are you from? i only ask as where you live depends on the treatment you receive. i had a total hysterectomy 2 years ago (after cervical cancer and other gyny probs). had vault smears (from top of vagina) 6 monthly afterwards and each time ive ended up in hosp having more surgery. now my doc wants me to consider a vaginectomy or radiatherapy (both of which means penetrative sex will be impossible). im scared and confused. ive never slept around, dont have HPV, and always gone for smears etc. and im only 42. i have a few months to decide on the treatment i have next as doc said hes 100% sure its not going to spread (very few cells at the moment), and also as i detest being in hospital and everything to do with this awful disease. i thought it would all be finished when i had the hysterectomy. not for me, and i am now in the one in a million position that it keeps recurring. have you had treatment? how is it going? anyway ive rambled on for quite a bit now so am going to go. paula